直到胖女人唱歌為止,它一直沒有結束,但是可悲的是,胖女人唱歌得太早了,脆弱的蝴蝶飛走了。
當我2000年在網上結識Charlene並打橋牌時,她是一位成功的女商人。她在網上訂購了許多法國和意大利產品,然後運往台灣,她嘗試了一切,她吃了任何東西,任何動物,水果或蔬菜的任何部分,食物都是她一生中很重要的一部分。 2000年我第一次在現實生活中遇見她時,她看上去就像電影明星。 2007年,這個女孩選擇放棄自己的生活,放棄了我們認為是家庭的最好的朋友,失去了她的工作,並賣掉了在台北的公寓與我同住。我告訴她:從現在開始,您將在餘生中度假,我信守諾言。
夏琳(Charlene)想要在荷蘭說些什麼,並開始在博客中建立新的個性,而不是利用她在台灣的名氣。她從零開始慢慢建立起來,如今在多個小組和平台中擁有超過213.000忠實的粉絲和追隨者。夏琳(Charlene)一直對旅行和歐洲美食感興趣,退休後的夢想是成為一名作家並住在屋頂傾斜的歐洲國家(尤其是法國或意大利)的房屋中。我們住在荷蘭一個不壞的公寓裡,屋頂平整,她非常喜歡這個溫馨的家庭。
在荷蘭,她開始寫烹飪書,在她變得更出名之後,一些出版商要求她翻譯書籍:例如尼吉拉·勞森,傑米·奧利弗和戈登·拉姆齊。即使在醫院進行重度化療時,她也一直在這樣做,甚至在她即將更正最新版本時也是如此。我們到了很多地方,都是隨機挑選的,只是四處逛逛,常常幾個小時都沒有遇到其他人或汽車。我們住在漂亮的公寓裡,大部分是在小城市和鄉村,或者在茫茫荒野中。我們看到了美麗的事物,吃了美味的食物,過著像本地人一樣的生活,輕鬆而
又沉悶。
自2017年10月以來,我和我的蝴蝶夏琳女王(Charlene)戰鬥了三年多。她獨自在醫院的無菌室里呆了6個月,我們已經隔離了一年多。起初,我們似乎可以戰勝這些可怕的癌症。這次夏琳只想要一點運氣,但無濟於事。夏琳心地善良,總是對他人意味著最好,她努力工作,堅韌而甜美,從不抱怨,對生活中的小事感到滿意。
從2020年8月開始,我們在意大利度過了最後兩個假期。錫耶納(Siena)讓她感到非常高興,“我有史以來最好的假期”。她的夢想是去第二個假期,直到下一個生日,我擔心那是非常樂觀的。夏琳對我們無法前往法國普羅旺斯的呂貝隆感到失望,因為我們最初計劃了第二個假期,2003年我們在此度過了第一次假期。不幸的是,荷蘭政府突然宣布法國的許多地區為“橙色”,我們剛預訂後就因為高電暈風險而禁止進入。西班牙也在名單上:一個我從未訪問過的國家,她想向我展示,西班牙全是橙色。
她完成了五件事,這在以前似乎幾乎是不可能的:我們2020年5月1日成立20週年,以及兩次浪漫的意大利長假。第一次去意大利的錫耶納和她最喜歡的Val d'Orcia,第二次去意大利的Lago Maggiore的斯特雷薩,那裡她的身體明顯較弱,但仍然非常欣賞令人嘆為觀止的景色和9月的夏日天氣,由於水的問題,再次搬到錫耶納(Siena),這使她感到自己在第二故鄉,感到非常高興!最近,她是荷蘭公民12年,而13年前移居荷蘭。我敢/希望認為這是因為她感到幸福,安全和得到了照顧。她的最終目標是她的生日(12月16日),很遺憾,這太樂觀了。
我們很享受,我們吃飯,我們哭了,我們笑了很多,我們彼此珍惜,我們聊了很多小時,一切都說了,不後悔。我們是一個。夏琳(Charlene)擔心我成為一個人,一個人呆著,為失去她感到難過,我為她錯過的一切感到非常抱歉,希望她能和我們在一起更長的時間。我們比以往任何時候都更加緊密。我非常愛她,她將永遠在我心中,會非常想念她!我好寂寞。
將來我會回到我們一起去過的地方。從4月底到2021年6月初,我們在意大利計劃,預訂並支付了“在電暈之后慶祝/征服癌症假期”的費用。如果Corona允許我,我現在仍然想走,但是那是對未來的“遙遠”,吸取了Charlene和我們過去的所有假期,我可能會稍作更改。我們計劃了很多事情,所以對你們所有人:Carpe Diem!不要延遲或推遲您的目標,願望或清單。我會保留她的個人資料,並嘗試不時發布一些內容,我不能總是閱讀所有評論並回复它們,但放心,我會注意到它們。對於跟隨Charlene到公寓和飯店旅行的朋友:請提及她以保持生命,以免被遺忘。
如果您決定做出回應,請做出有意義的回應。不要有空洞,空洞,無所事事或宗教用語,否則請不要回應,我倆都很好,我知道你也會想念她。
熊
It aint over till the fat lady sings, but sadly the fat lady sang too early and the fragile butterfly flew away.
When I met Charlene in 2000 online, playing bridge, she was a successful businesswoman. She ordered lots of French and Italian products online to ship to Taiwan, she tried everything, she ate anything, any part of any animal, any fruit or vegetable, food was an important part of her life. The moment I first met her in real life in 2000 to me she looked like a movie star. In 2007 this girl chose to give up her life, her best friends we consider family, her work and sold her apartment in Taipei to live with me. I told her: From now on you will be on a Holiday for the rest of your life and I kept my promise.
Charlene wanted to mean something in Holland and started to create a new personality in a blog, not using her fame from Taiwan. She slowly built it up from nothing and today has more than 213.000 loyal fans and followers in several groups and platforms. Charlene has always been interested in travel and European food and her dream after retirement was to become a writer and live in a house in a European country with a slanted roof, preferably in France or Italy. We lived in a not bad apartment in Holland with a flat roof which she loved so much, home sweet home.
In Holland she started to write cooking books, after she became more famous, she was asked by several publishers to translate books: Nigella Lawson, Jamie Oliver and Gordon Ramsay for instance. She has been doing this even when she was on heavy chemotherapy in hospital, even just before the end she was correcting the last version. We traveled to many places, randomly picked, just drove around, often not meeting any other person or car for hours. We stayed in beautiful apartments, mostly in small cities and villages or in the middle of nowhere. We saw beautiful things, ate fantastic food, lived life like a local, relaxed, but never a dull moment.
Charlene the truffle queen, my butterfly and I fought since October 2017 for more than three years. She has been in a sterile room alone in hospital for 6 months, we have been in quarantine for more than a year. At first it looked like we would conquer these horrible cancers. All Charlene wanted was a little luck this time, but to no avail. Charlene had a good heart and always meant the best for others, she worked hard, she was tough and sweet, she never complained, and she was happy with the little things in life.
From August 2020 we have been on our last two Holidays in Italy. Siena made her extremely happy, “My best Holiday ever” she said. Her dream was to go on a second Holiday and reach her next birthday, I was afraid that was quite optimistic. Charlene was disappointed we could not travel to the Luberon in the Provence in France, where we originally planned our second Holiday, where we had our first Holiday together in 2003. Unfortunately, the Dutch government suddenly declared many regions in France as “orange”, no go areas because of high Corona risks just after we booked. Spain was also on the list: A country I have never visited, and she wanted to show me, Spain was all orange.
Five things she accomplished, which earlier seemed nearly impossible: Our 20th anniversary May 1st, 2020 and two romantic long Holidays to Italy. The first to Siena, Italy and her favourite Val d’Orcia and the second to Stresa at Lago Maggiore, Italy where she was clearly weaker, but still immensely enjoyed the breathtaking views and the summery weather in September, where due to water problems we had to move, to Siena again, this made her feel at her second home, she was so happy! Recently she was a Dutch citizen for 12 years and moved to Holland 13 years ago. I dare/wish to think it was because she felt happy, safe and taken care of. Her final goal was her birthday (December 16th), unfortunately that was too optimistic.
We enjoyed, we dined, we cried, we laughed a lot, we cherished each other, we talked for many hours, everything has been said, no regrets. We were one. Charlene was worried for me to be and stay all alone and was sad for me losing her and I felt so sorry for all the things she missed out on, wished she would have stayed with us longer. We have been closer than ever before. I love her very much, she will always be in my heart, will miss her so much! I feel so lonely.
In the future I will go back to the places we have visited together. From the end of April till the beginning of June 2021 we planned, booked and paid an “after Corona, celebration / conquer cancer Holiday” in Italy. I now still want to go if Corona lets me, but that is “far” into the future, having learned from Charlene and all our past Holidays, I might change it slightly. We had planned so many things, so to all of you: Carpe Diem! Do not delay or postpone your goals, wishes or bucket list. I will keep her profile alive and try to post something now and then, I cannot always read all comments and reply to them, but rest assured, I will notice them. For the friends that follow Charlene’s travels to apartments and restaurants: Please mention her to keep her alive so that she will not be forgotten.
If you decide to respond, please respond meaningful. No hollow, empty, idle or religious phrases, else please do not respond at all, both are equally fine with me, I know you will miss her too.
Bear
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直到胖女人唱歌為止,它一直沒有結束,但是可悲的是,胖女人唱歌得太早了,脆弱的蝴蝶飛走了。
當我2000年在網上結識Charlene並打橋牌時,她是一位成功的女商人。她在網上訂購了許多法國和意大利產品,然後運往台灣,她嘗試了一切,她吃了任何東西,任何動物,水果或蔬菜的任何部分,食物都是她一生中很重要的一部分。 2000年我第一次在現實生活中遇見她時,她看上去就像電影明星。 2007年,這個女孩選擇放棄自己的生活,放棄了我們認為是家庭的最好的朋友,失去了她的工作,並賣掉了在台北的公寓與我同住。我告訴她:從現在開始,您將在餘生中度假,我信守諾言。
夏琳(Charlene)想要在荷蘭說些什麼,並開始在博客中建立新的個性,而不是利用她在台灣的名氣。她從零開始慢慢建立起來,如今在多個小組和平台中擁有超過213.000忠實的粉絲和追隨者。夏琳(Charlene)一直對旅行和歐洲美食感興趣,退休後的夢想是成為一名作家並住在屋頂傾斜的歐洲國家(尤其是法國或意大利)的房屋中。我們住在荷蘭一個不壞的公寓裡,屋頂平整,她非常喜歡這個溫馨的家庭。
在荷蘭,她開始寫烹飪書,在她變得更出名之後,一些出版商要求她翻譯書籍:例如尼吉拉·勞森,傑米·奧利弗和戈登·拉姆齊。即使在醫院進行重度化療時,她也一直在這樣做,甚至在她即將更正最新版本時也是如此。我們到了很多地方,都是隨機挑選的,只是四處逛逛,常常幾個小時都沒有遇到其他人或汽車。我們住在漂亮的公寓裡,大部分是在小城市和鄉村,或者在茫茫荒野中。我們看到了美麗的事物,吃了美味的食物,過著像本地人一樣的生活,輕鬆而又沉悶。
自2017年10月以來,我和我的蝴蝶夏琳女王(Charlene)戰鬥了三年多。她獨自在醫院的無菌室里呆了6個月,我們已經隔離了一年多。起初,我們似乎可以戰勝這些可怕的癌症。這次夏琳只想要一點運氣,但無濟於事。夏琳心地善良,總是對他人意味著最好,她努力工作,堅韌而甜美,從不抱怨,對生活中的小事感到滿意。
從2020年8月開始,我們在意大利度過了最後兩個假期。錫耶納(Siena)讓她感到非常高興,“我有史以來最好的假期”。她的夢想是去第二個假期,直到下一個生日,我擔心那是非常樂觀的。夏琳對我們無法前往法國普羅旺斯的呂貝隆感到失望,因為我們最初計劃了第二個假期,2003年我們在此度過了第一次假期。不幸的是,荷蘭政府突然宣布法國的許多地區為“橙色”,我們剛預訂後就因為高電暈風險而禁止進入。西班牙也在名單上:一個我從未訪問過的國家,她想向我展示,西班牙全是橙色。
她完成了五件事,這在以前似乎幾乎是不可能的:我們2020年5月1日成立20週年,以及兩次浪漫的意大利長假。第一次去意大利的錫耶納和她最喜歡的Val d'Orcia,第二次去意大利的Lago Maggiore的斯特雷薩,那裡她的身體明顯較弱,但仍然非常欣賞令人嘆為觀止的景色和9月的夏日天氣,由於水的問題,再次搬到錫耶納(Siena),這使她感到自己在第二故鄉,感到非常高興!最近,她是荷蘭公民12年,而13年前移居荷蘭。我敢/希望認為這是因為她感到幸福,安全和得到了照顧。她的最終目標是她的生日(12月16日),很遺憾,這太樂觀了。
我們很享受,我們吃飯,我們哭了,我們笑了很多,我們彼此珍惜,我們聊了很多小時,一切都說了,不後悔。我們是一個。夏琳(Charlene)擔心我成為一個人,一個人呆著,為失去她感到難過,我為她錯過的一切感到非常抱歉,希望她能和我們在一起更長的時間。我們比以往任何時候都更加緊密。我非常愛她,她將永遠在我心中,會非常想念她!我好寂寞。
將來我會回到我們一起去過的地方。從4月底到2021年6月初,我們在意大利計劃,預訂並支付了“在電暈之后慶祝/征服癌症假期”的費用。如果Corona允許我,我現在仍然想走,但是那是對未來的“遙遠”,吸取了Charlene和我們過去的所有假期,我可能會稍作更改。我們計劃了很多事情,所以對你們所有人:Carpe Diem!不要延遲或推遲您的目標,願望或清單。我會保留她的個人資料,並嘗試不時發布一些內容,我不能總是閱讀所有評論並回复它們,但放心,我會注意到它們。對於跟隨Charlene到公寓和飯店旅行的朋友:請提及她以保持生命,以免被遺忘。
如果您決定做出回應,請做出有意義的回應。不要有空洞,空洞,無所事事或宗教用語,否則請不要回應,我倆都很好,我知道你也會想念她。
熊
It aint over till the fat lady sings, but sadly the fat lady sang too early and the fragile butterfly flew away.
When I met Charlene in 2000 online, playing bridge, she was a successful businesswoman. She ordered lots of French and Italian products online to ship to Taiwan, she tried everything, she ate anything, any part of any animal, any fruit or vegetable, food was an important part of her life. The moment I first met her in real life in 2000 to me she looked like a movie star. In 2007 this girl chose to give up her life, her best friends we consider family, her work and sold her apartment in Taipei to live with me. I told her: From now on you will be on a Holiday for the rest of your life and I kept my promise.
Charlene wanted to mean something in Holland and started to create a new personality in a blog, not using her fame from Taiwan. She slowly built it up from nothing and today has more than 213.000 loyal fans and followers in several groups and platforms. Charlene has always been interested in travel and European food and her dream after retirement was to become a writer and live in a house in a European country with a slanted roof, preferably in France or Italy. We lived in a not bad apartment in Holland with a flat roof which she loved so much, home sweet home.
In Holland she started to write cooking books, after she became more famous, she was asked by several publishers to translate books: Nigella Lawson, Jamie Oliver and Gordon Ramsay for instance. She has been doing this even when she was on heavy chemotherapy in hospital, even just before the end she was correcting the last version. We traveled to many places, randomly picked, just drove around, often not meeting any other person or car for hours. We stayed in beautiful apartments, mostly in small cities and villages or in the middle of nowhere. We saw beautiful things, ate fantastic food, lived life like a local, relaxed, but never a dull moment.
Charlene the truffle queen, my butterfly and I fought since October 2017 for more than three years. She has been in a sterile room alone in hospital for 6 months, we have been in quarantine for more than a year. At first it looked like we would conquer these horrible cancers. All Charlene wanted was a little luck this time, but to no avail. Charlene had a good heart and always meant the best for others, she worked hard, she was tough and sweet, she never complained, and she was happy with the little things in life.
From August 2020 we have been on our last two Holidays in Italy. Siena made her extremely happy, “My best Holiday ever” she said. Her dream was to go on a second Holiday and reach her next birthday, I was afraid that was quite optimistic. Charlene was disappointed we could not travel to the Luberon in the Provence in France, where we originally planned our second Holiday, where we had our first Holiday together in 2003. Unfortunately, the Dutch government suddenly declared many regions in France as “orange”, no go areas because of high Corona risks just after we booked. Spain was also on the list: A country I have never visited, and she wanted to show me, Spain was all orange.
Five things she accomplished, which earlier seemed nearly impossible: Our 20th anniversary May 1st, 2020 and two romantic long Holidays to Italy. The first to Siena, Italy and her favourite Val d’Orcia and the second to Stresa at Lago Maggiore, Italy where she was clearly weaker, but still immensely enjoyed the breathtaking views and the summery weather in September, where due to water problems we had to move, to Siena again, this made her feel at her second home, she was so happy! Recently she was a Dutch citizen for 12 years and moved to Holland 13 years ago. I dare/wish to think it was because she felt happy, safe and taken care of. Her final goal was her birthday (December 16th), unfortunately that was too optimistic.
We enjoyed, we dined, we cried, we laughed a lot, we cherished each other, we talked for many hours, everything has been said, no regrets. We were one. Charlene was worried for me to be and stay all alone and was sad for me losing her and I felt so sorry for all the things she missed out on, wished she would have stayed with us longer. We have been closer than ever before. I love her very much, she will always be in my heart, will miss her so much! I feel so lonely.
In the future I will go back to the places we have visited together. From the end of April till the beginning of June 2021 we planned, booked and paid an “after Corona, celebration / conquer cancer Holiday” in Italy. I now still want to go if Corona lets me, but that is “far” into the future, having learned from Charlene and all our past Holidays, I might change it slightly. We had planned so many things, so to all of you: Carpe Diem! Do not delay or postpone your goals, wishes or bucket list. I will keep her profile alive and try to post something now and then, I cannot always read all comments and reply to them, but rest assured, I will notice them. For the friends that follow Charlene’s travels to apartments and restaurants: Please mention her to keep her alive so that she will not be forgotten.
If you decide to respond, please respond meaningful. No hollow, empty, idle or religious phrases, else please do not respond at all, both are equally fine with me, I know you will miss her too.
Bear
荒野 獨 居 alone 在 吳崢 Facebook 的最佳解答
這篇是最近看到不少過往的社運夥伴們在討論我們這個世代是否面臨「組織失敗」,心有所感,把一些思緒整理出來Echo的文。裡面主要在陳述我個人對「個人原子化」浪潮的觀察與體悟,政治倒只佔了一小部分。雖然初衷是回應從社運踏入政治圈的戰友,但許多提到的處境是我們所有人都共同生活在其中的,希望藉著這篇也能和大家一起對話。
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近來關於「組織」有不少討論,論者提出我們這個世代以降,在橫向連結上是缺乏、挫折、乃至「失敗」的。在我的人際網路中,張勝涵、黃守達、藍士博等人都對此提出了深刻的自我批判與分析,其他還有更多來自異議性社團、校園等不同角度的探問。在這少有的、不同位置的行動者彼此伸出觸角,試著摸索與對話的時刻,我嘗試以這篇文章加入。
這系列對話的起點始於張勝涵提出世代「組織的失敗」,張勝涵認為,現在30歲上下的這個世代沒有形成有意義的串聯與集結,導致沒有產出世代性的政治議程,也在政治鬥爭上失利,連具體的思想成果都甚為欠缺。
講出「失敗」二字是對當下自我處境的深刻覺悟。但於我而言,感受到的更像是包括我在內的大家在某種共時性、Stand Alone Complex式的氛圍下,於此時直面了「個人的無力」這件事。之所以這麼說,是因為我覺得一直以來,我對組織這件事其實都是缺乏足夠認識與思想準備。抑或說以一種過於簡化,以藍圖打造機械一樣無機式的理解去看待。因此與其談論失敗,更像是從未真正開始。
在這系列中,士博提到了「人類社群組織的逐漸弱化,是一個整體的趨勢」,守達也說到「必須要有共同體,才有戰鬥的理由」。我感到我們眼前都浮現一幅共同的視野:破碎的世代、個人的原子化。
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什麼是人的原子化?我想起我過往的一段生命經驗。
在國三升高一的暑假,我國中最好的兩位朋友不約而同都決定要前往美國升學。於是乎考完基測的我突然彷彿有了無窮的時間,本該是期待已久從大考桎梏中解放的雀躍,但沒有了夥伴,每一天的漫漫長日竟都成了不知如何揮霍的資產。
當時還是Yahoo Messenger的年代,人們已經可以透過網路不受物理空間限制的即時與人取得連繫和交流。我當然也試圖以網路維繫以往的關係。但說來奇怪,我們彼此通訊的頻率卻由一開始的聊個不停,慢慢便變成隔幾天一次、再變成幾周、再變成很少。開口時也漸漸感到勉強,好像不知可以說些什麼,但我們明明是那樣好的交情啊?到最後上線的頭像彷彿變成一個略感尷尬又試著忽略的存在,因為不知該如何面對這樣「沒有任何不好,但不知如何以對」的情境。
那時我有時候會忍不住想,如果沒有Messenger是不是反而會更容易一點?至少這樣當我們在台灣再碰面時,不用想到這種可以連絡卻又沒有聯絡的微妙尷尬,更自然且熱絡的重溫交情。
這件事雖然起於物理空間的分隔,和時代無關。但我想分享的是,這種藉著網路而存在,一種看似連結卻又疏離的關係,我相信是我們這輩開始許多人共同的經驗。
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你是否有過這樣的經驗:寂寞地打開通訊錄、打開臉書想找個人說話。但一個名字一個名字滑過眼前卻又不知到底要敲誰好,最後乾脆默默把手機/電腦關上?
時代的變化無情但公平地作用在每個人身上。網路對過往人類組織與空間的破壞是摧枯拉朽的。網拍取代實體門市、串流平台取代CD行與漫畫店、美食外送取代餐廳。當演唱會都能轉型搬到線上時,未來還有多少人類活動能免於被網路解構和重組?
科技的進步讓我們能夠在任何時間瞬間聯絡任何人、取得各種需要的服務,但我們卻同時也失去了曾經共同生活的的經驗與場域。而隨之一起被衝擊的,也包含依附在過去空間中建立的人際關係模式。
乍看之下,個人彷彿取得了前所未有的自由度,每一天過去我們所受到的空間限制都更少,但傳統的社會連結也越來越薄弱。洗衣、吃飯、清潔、娛樂,種種我們的日常所需幾乎都能外包或在線上處理。「每個人越來越能夠不依賴他人生活」與「每個人越來越孤獨的生活」是幾乎併行發生的現象。
網路能夠媒合各種關係,甚至包含過去不會發生的關係,但只要任一方切斷網路,便也瞬間切斷了這個關係(試想像Tinder)。我們遠較以往的時代更直接暴露在世界的荒野中,有如迷路回不了巢的蜜蜂,不再有群體的勞動義務,不再有六角形的蜂巢框住。前所未有的自由、也前所未有的脆弱,而眼前正有狂風席捲而來。
「我們所稱之為前進者,正是這場風暴。」(班雅明)
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政治只是社會結構的上層建築,同樣的事自然也在政治中發生。
原子化對整個世代的諸多影響中,我認為其中一個便是使我們產生「我可以自己一個人」的錯覺。
網路在政治佔據了越來越重要的地位,社群政治更是將「分解-重組」推向一個新的高峰。與過去相比,在網路社群的時代中個別政治人物並不需要透過團體,或取得某種團體代表性,依然能夠較過去更容易「被看到」。
只要你夠有料、夠有特色,即便你只有自己一個人,還是能夠取得相當的聲量與話語權。政治人物就算不經營媒體、政黨等中間平台的關係,還是能直接接觸廣大群眾。組織對團體成員的共同利益在下降,團結在組織之內的必要性也在下降。
這樣的後果,一來使大家產生一種「我自己就足夠」的錯覺。二來也使每個人好像都成為潛在的競爭者,社群上對眼球停留時間的競爭越來越激烈,政治人物也無法置身事外。
然而,即便政治明星較過去更容易形成,權力的取得更為迅速。但沒有組織的支撐,再強大的明星在退去聲量的外衣後依舊是脆弱的個人。當你心中知道背後沒有其他人會接住你時,你的政治判斷、你對風險的接受程度都會受到影響。因為你唯一的資產便是你與你所乘著的浪潮,你不能容許自己掉下來,也沒有失敗的餘裕。
一個強大但脆弱的個體,和能夠互相支援的團體是完全不同的。如果無法承擔輸的後果,就無法發起真正的鬥爭。前者看似對一切結構叛逆,其實無力真正挑戰什麼。
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對以上描述的種種現象,我對勝涵提出「組織失敗」的理解是:這是一份呼告,呼告世代必須奮起、必須突破種種加諸在身上的結構,擺脫「無力者」的處境。而解答大家也都已提出:必須團結、必須逆向對抗解構的作用力、必須重構共同體。
那麼共同體要如何形成?守達以「為彼此而戰的共同體」提出號召:我們必須標示出共同的敵人,以凝聚共同的作戰方向。如果失去了敵人,就會不知為何而戰,便會分化進而裂解。
共同體的形成沒有路線正確與否,只有出現與否。團體的邊界、情感的聯繫、互相幫助的存在都是共同體的標誌。但有件讓我擔憂的事是,這些年我看到我們這個世代在一個又一個出現的事件中,因著眼前的巨大敵人、大義的號召而聚集戰鬥與解散。在這樣的重複動員中,個人往往被排到政治判斷之後的位置,當政治判斷出現分歧時,大家便在種種巨大的結構衝突中被撕裂。這是很耗損的過程。
當然,並不存在怎麼做的正解,任何嘗試都比沒有嘗試好。我也沒有一個清晰的答案,我現在對如何團結只能回到很基本很小的想法,就是「幫助彼此」。
一個共同體如果無法保護成員、無法提供成員需要的幫助,那這個共同體就沒有存在的價值,我是這麼理解的。所以在大的藍圖以外,我覺得我們其實可以去試著做一些小事,去想有什麼是我們能幫助到彼此的?其實,在現在許多人分處不同政黨、不同團體的情勢下,光這點就很難了,但我覺得就算光是詢問,單單只是開口問「有沒有什麼需要幫忙的」,就已經踏出很棒的一步,從微小之處開始修復橫向關係。
這些聽起來很像空話,卻是我所能想到的方法。個人要逆流對抗原子化的趨勢相當困難,撇除政治,我目前在生活中也試著和一些夥伴建立穩定的日常關係,每週固定碰面、固定從事相同活動。短期目標是我們集結到相鄰的地方居住,以類似社區的模式連結我們這個世代的社群,創造生活、創造意義,這是我個人現在在進行的嘗試。
解決問題的第一步,是辨認出問題。我想感謝勝涵、守達、士博等人在公開的版面拋出這系列討論。我們都嘗試在看到眼前的問題後,回頭對結構做點什麼,而講出來就是非常棒的第一步。期待在這之後,我們這個世代也繼續試著摸索與對話,畢竟長路漫漫,有人同行總是比一個人好的。