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Masa awal aku kahwin dengan isteri aku, aku dapat pakej 4 orang anak. Alhamdulillah. Yang mana 2 daripada 4 ni istimewa sikit. Dua-dua aspergers. Sorang ADD sorang lagi ADHD. Paling mencabar sekali tau tak apa? Anak-anak ni sebelum kehadiran aku, diorang ni di manjakan betul. Cukup manja! Semua nak, dapat. Tak boleh kena tegur, mesti menaangis dan membentak. 3 lelaki, sorang perempuan. Masa tu umur yang sulung 14 tahun. Yang second 12 tahun...
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When I married my wife, I got a package of 4 children. Thank God. Which 2 of the 4 is a little special. Both aspergers. Another ADD another ADHD. It's most challenging to know it's okay? These kids before my presence, they are being pampered right. Pretty spoiled! All want, got it. Can't be told, must cry and snap. 3 men, a woman. At that time the eldest was 14 years old. The second 12 years old. Third 9 years old. Fourth of 6 years old girl.
First time entering the family, I've had a meeting done. With gangster style, long hair braids. I'm doing a LIVE FB meeting with children. In the meeting, I just entered the family, so follow my rules. I don't follow their rules.
At the beginning, many people who are nearest have started tripping and spreading stories, not saying that I will hit the kids. The swing bowl is right who reads people from this person's use.
Remember the early marriage, my wife always reminds me of me. If these kids promise anything they need to be fulfilled, they will cry badly and scream. Hard to persuade. Sometimes I want to break my breath and cry. The other one is ADHD if he cries, he can't be angry, he has to say it carefully. Because later he will be raging and coming hyper. The one who added is his own attitude. It's just his problem that he doesn't take the port. The eldest is the most pamper. Ask for whatever the confirmation gets. After that it's urgent to work.
I really don't feel like I'm suitable at all. What should I do? Wash his mother first. My wife cried when she washed her first. I said it's simple. I don't want my son to grow up to die and get everything he wants to wear. Nothing, tomorrow won't be given, he rebel like going crazy.
Everything that my wife says can't do, I prove it to my wife, everything that she thinks is wrong. I made it. I didn't see anyone doing what my wife said. I just tried to bring MCD, then I parked at the Tomyam shop. Look at all the faces that are slammed. But no one is crying.
That's where it all started. Until one part I saw my wife still wrongly. I said it's simple.
′′ Want something big, need a big sacrifice. If you maintain like this, it's too wrong that you have to follow all your child's wishes, you're afraid to say NO and then you're crying and tired of your brother Trust me. Just like this, you'll lose your brother. Choose. ′′ ′′
Hah my wife was shaking at that time.
Yes, it's not easy to fight the mother's instinct. I really understand. But have to remember, you want to be sad until when you just want to entertain the extreme motherhood instincts? How do you want your child to grow up? What's he doing today, he's already big tomorrow. You're poor, he asks for something you can't fulfill. You think he got it? That's the wrong time he just said this sentence.
′′ Why is my mom not like someone else's mom. It's okay. I am not important ′′
Heart was shaking at that time. He didn't tell me 100 times, once didn't let him release such a painful sentence?
I'm nothing, kids like this even more men, have to grow up to be men. Not a bapok, not a Kpop. Man. The world will come far more evil. Responsibility is far bigger. It is compulsory to grow up to be a man. I repeat.
MEN.
That's when my wife slowly became a mad mother. Kah kah kah. The kids were shocked at that time. Suddenly mom is good at screaming? Suddenly mom is good at tunjal head? Suddenly mom is good at slapping? Suddenly mom dares to throw her phone against the wall?
Most power if a child I say near her mother,
′′ Mom doesn't love me, I hate mom.."
If my wife used to hear this verse, she will feel sinful and crying. Now you know what my wife answer?
′′ Once you hate me, 100 times I hate you.."
Stunned again child. Feels like the tactical of playing sentiment is not going to be. Continue to continue doing homework.
After that the scene of running away from the middle of the night, haa my wife is already cuak. Look for me to tell my child to run home. Cleaning up the bag. If you're as a mother, are you rocking? 10-year-olds when they were running home. Other siblings are busy trying not to run away, they insist on running.
I told my wife I'm happy je.
′′ Do not persuade. Just ask him to run the house faster. Go help her pack the bag. Do not worry. I used to threaten my mother like this when I was small. When my mother is stupid, I stay outside for a while and then I will go home because it's scary outside the dark.. if you persuade, don't run away, believe Tomorrow he's busy threatening to run again."
My wife went down and asked her to leave her house faster. This kid won't go out after opening the door. Look at the dark outside. He immediately opened the saji headscarf, making him hungry. It's so hard to look at it.
Want to turn into a Lion, it looks evil. Many will talk about this. You say you don't love your children. If this part is not strong, it will be stupid to be eaten by these words. But you have to believe one thing. This mother and father knows her child better than all of you. He knows so much. Know which limit he can make or not. We who watch from outside don't pretend to teach other people's children, teach our own children first to let go. Look at our children today he appreciate us how.
I was worst being criticized at that time.
He said since my wife married me, my wife's attitude has changed. Getting harder. Fierce with the kids. And many more lah. I'm lazy to take a port. The one who speaks is a woman who has never tasted anything. Work is great. So bored listening to it. But I'm cooking so much, it's normal that the sound of this person's confirmation since childhood has never lived hard, the child and the one that is like diva is usually the same. Just deaf the ear. Focus on the mission for the good of the child to come.
After 3 years, I recently had a meeting with all my children. I ask, did you notice that mom used to be different from now?
All bobbing. Getting more ferocious and crazy people say.
I'm so happy to hear. Let go of that I said.
′′ Try all of you to look back at this day. What's the difference? Neno 8 years old can be brushed by school clothes. Already able to wipe Ayra out. Luth 10 years can wash everyone's dishes. Hoze is the most improvement. From my own world today, you are the most helping to work in your house. 13 years old, washing clothes, hanging clothes, sleeping ayraa, bathing ayraa. And many more. Anish, you are the eldest brother. Thank God. No more pushy. See you already understand the reality of being a brother. Every morning sitting in the kitchen helping mom cook.. that's okay. Proud for a while Dedi. Dedi is nothing, you ask Dedi's siblings if they are rude to his mother, what happens to them. Must eat Dedi's feet. You become a son, you have to be a protector to your mother. Don't make it a slave mother."
All sighs. I'm connecting again.
′′ Do you know why this Seremban house Dedi doesn't install air conditioner near Indeed Dedi doesn't let mom install air conditioner. Let me sleep hot. Learning how to use a fan. Dedi used to grow up but never sleeps in air conditioner, thank God I grew up healthy. Dedi wants anything can't just get like that. So men have to learn how to feel hard. So that tomorrow, you will learn to be grateful. I will remember your parents when they are happy. You'll be close to siblings, tomorrow this is what you'll laugh back when you tell the story. Trust me. All of these are the sweetest memories. Mother and father don't know when will die. Maybe tomorrow we die, at least Anish can take care of the younger siblings."
Everyone was laughing at that time. My eldest child will interrupt in a while.
′′ Dedi, but honestly Anish likes the current mother from mother before. Even though it's fierce, but it's true when I remember it again. All of us are good at all. I just noticed that someone else is 8 years old but doesn't even know how to take care of the baby who is a year old and shower and defecate. Luth has changed a lot. No more crying. Hardworking. Hoze has changed a lot of crazy. Playing with the phone. There's only one problem, when you have a relative, you can come, don't sit in the Just sit down once. Anyway, I swear, Anish loves the mother who was now from the old times. Even though the current mother is crazy saiko! Haha. Mom, you are Queen Of My Heart! Mother is crazy, before Anish didn't understand a lot. When Anish sees mom struggle, Anish becomes a pity. Just saw all the sacrifices of the mother for all of us."
Others bobbing heads agree and laugh with what brother anish he said.
All impressed when I remember back. Until neno's turn, she keeps crying. She really apologizes near her mom.
The most powerful, they are siblings when their aunt wants to ask them to come out. Each one has completed the job of who managed his / her sister's clothes this year, who will beat his / her younger sibling's pampers, who will manage his / her sister's pampers. All of them think for themselves. Talk to each other and manage the equipment of his little brother who is a year old. No need to have a mother with her dedi.
Power, isn't it? Two Aspergers, an ordinary person. The eldest has entered MRSM. It means that the number two child of ADD is taking over.
Even when I'm going back to hometown, my wife just gave me an order. They all clean up their own bags. My wife doesn't even mix a single dust. My wife looks like a big boss today. All homeworks are managed by the child. My wife's duty is to cook. Wash clothes, dry clothes, wash dishes, wash toilets, throw away garbage, shower ayra for a year, all the kids who manage it.
If I don't move, I won't let my wife shout out to other children. But mad at the eldest child. Let the eldest child be stressed. Whatever happened to the younger siblings, I told her mother to kill her eldest child. So when the younger siblings aren't working, fighting, the eldest brother already knows that he needs to be tiaw with his mother later. Didn't say much, he just settled his younger siblings. That's it brother!
Thank God. The story is only one. Our children, we know each other. There's a part of being fierce, there's a part that needs to be There's a part that can laugh. This mother has one veto power, but many are afraid to use it because she is not in other s' language and is so afraid that her child will hate It doesn't mean anything! It's boring to entertain the sentiment of pity that is extreme. You used to be your mother who hit your face, do you hate your mother to big? Nothing. We're fierce because we just want to educate. Not fierce all the time. More than firm. When you see your child hardworking, listen to it, there's a day that will give you a surprise Chocolate or what? Taking a walk to the park. Time with family has to be there.
If you're too spoiled, you can make your child become responsible and the person who will defend your family, I think that the Malay soldiers won't even be training hard as hard as possible. It's better for them to just pray for all the new soldiers. What do you want, everything is given. Wake up late, swipe your hair and then kiss your forehead. Even eating time is delicious. Sleeping at night comfortably, installing air conditioner. Put on the wifi.
What was it?
Before you want to say this person, ask ourselves first. Our 7-year-old child eats, is he good at washing his own dishes? Do you know how to follow your time schedule? Can you brush your own school clothes?
If you're not good at anything, don't make me feel bad about the way other father's mother educate someone's child.
The hardest episode in educating children at this age. Believe me, this will all be a longing for the kids when they leave the house later. And this also makes them siblings get closer.
Patience, victory day is coming! Early sacrifice is the most important. Fight all the wrong feelings that always play in the soul. Only one thing you have to remember, as long as you don't fight with religion. Mom is never wrong! Angry, fierce lah. Do not worry. Continue to educate our ways. Don't forget the power of Veto!
Eh forgot, waimah is a special child. What the doctor said put number two. Accompanying kids like normal kids before but there's a limit. Don't teach him to be a special child since you were young. We know our children again, right? Because I always believe, crazy people when we clap their hands twice when they want to take our food, the third time they will understand and won't take it anymore. That's the crazy person. So, Don't let the child know he's special. Don't disturb her brain. Just entertaining the same thing.
Everyone is like that. If he feels like there are advantages, there is someone who defends more, he will start to get a chance. Can't believe it? You try to pamper your child crazy. Let go of the try in front of you, someone tease him less, you see how he has torn to tears later he will get your attention.
Anyway..
Only one thing I'm still failing. Failed to change their name call among siblings. No call Along, Angah, Bangde. I feel strongly, calling this name also has a certain advantage to put the difference between the younger brother and brother. There is a family aura.
Don't forget, Father's role in psychology is important to be crazy. Because with this mother, no matter how fierce it is, the child is brave to fight. Dad must be good at playing roles. No need to touch, you need to know when you want to have a high voice. When you want to call your child, sit down and talk about others.
Become a child idol.
Trust me, step child and biological child two things that are impossible. Because the power of VETO only exists in biological children. This step child has a risk that you need to face. What happened to them, people will say that you don't love them because it's not your biological child. Painful and sad that sentence is for me. Allah knows how I love them.
I wrote it,
Mr Amir Lake
P / s: In the past my wife was criticized by the Aspie group when my wife said she educated her aspie's child in the way she was a little firm. All sorts of people are teasing, he said that this aspie child will take revenge and kill him. Have to be teased every day. Poor. My wife doesn't agree with my actions early because she holds the doctor's order. Today, I'm asking my child aspie. Tomorrow if mom gets disturbed by someone else in front of you what will you do? What did he answer? I'll hit him enough! And I asked my wife, how about the person who teased her child? He said his child is under control but sometimes he's raging badly until he's about to breath. At the same time today my child aspie is good at cooking, can do all homework and love his siblings so much.
Mr. Amir Lake creditTranslated
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"Welcome To The Black Parade" by My Chemical Romance
When I was a young boy
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band
He said, "Son when you grow up
Would you be the savior of the broken
The beaten and the damned?"
He said "Will you defeat them
Your demons, and all the non-believers
The plans that they have made?"
"Because one day I'll leave you
A phantom to lead you in the summer
To join The Black Parade"
When I was a young boy
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band
He said, "Son when you grow up
Would you be the saviour of the broken
The beaten and the damned?"
Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me
And other times I feel like I should go
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets
And when you're gone we want you all to know
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it
A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call
To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches
On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all
Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I
Don't
Care!
We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
You'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on
Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part (We'll carry on)
Do or die, you'll never make me (We'll carry on)
Because the world will never take my heart (We'll carry on)
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
(We'll carry on!)
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มันเป็นอะไรที่ Fail มาก มีพี่คนนึงเคยบอกว่า นี่หล่ะ "มันเป็นผลพลอย ของคนใช้เงินไม่เป็น และอยากได้เยอะเกินไป ให้คนอื่นเยอะไป"
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แน่นอนว่า สิ่งๆ นี้มันกระทบการพากย์ของผมหนักมาก ถึงมากที่สุด มันทำให้ไม่มีสมาธิ เหมือนผม ต้องหักอารมณ์เศร้า แล้วผมต้องมาทำให้มันดีที่สุดใน เวลานั้น ในชั่วโมงนั้น เพื่อที่ส่งความสนุกให้กับคนดูมากที่สุด และ เก็บงำความทุกข์ไว้เพียงลำพังนั่นเอง
"ถามว่าเป็นซึมเศร้าไหม? ก็เกือบเป็นนะจากผล ทดสอบ"
ต่อมาในปลายปี 2018 ผมได้ก้าวข้ามในสิ่งที่เศร้า ปลดเปลื้องสิ่งที่ทำให้โง่เขลา แน่นอนมันตามหลอกหลอนผมในทุกๆ วินาที ที่ผมว่าง หรือแม้กระทั่ง ใครพูดเรื่องนี้ขึ้นมาต่อหน้าเรา เราก็จะรู้สึกแย่ ภาพเก่าๆ มันหวนมาทำร้ายเราตลอด
พวกคุณจะสังเกตุได้ว่าทำไม ผมพากย์ไม่ไปไหน ทำไมผมแย่ลง ทำไมผมดูไม่ดุดันแบบแต่ก่อน นั่นคือสาเหตุข้างต้น เรื่องโดนโกงเงินทั้งนั้นครับ
หลายคนอาจจะพูด "เงินไม่ตายหาใหม่ได้"
แต่แล้วต้องคิดกลับกันว่า "นั่นมันคือเงินเก็บทั้งชีวิตของผมนะ"
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เริ่มต้นในปี 2019
ผมได้พยายามทำทุกวิถีทางให้ลืมๆ มันไป และ พยายามแก้ไขในหลายๆ สิ่ง ผมใช้เงินส่วนตัวทั้งหมดที่มีอยู่ ไปเที่ยวญี่ปุ่น เพื่อที่จะลบล้างมันซะ ในบางส่วน ออกไปใช้ชีวิตบ้าง
เพราะที่ผ่านๆ มาที่ผมไป มีพี่ๆ เสือร้องไห้ เลี้ยงทั้่งนั้น นั่นคือ พวกพี่ๆ ที่เป็นไอดอล ของผม (รวมถึงผู้ใหญ่ท่านอื่นๆ ด้วย) แน่นอน ปัจจุบันก็มี Hashtag คอยช่วยเหลือผมอยู่เสมอมา
ฟังดูอาจจะย้อนแย้งเนอะ?
"เงินไม่มียังจะไปเที่ยวอีกเหรอวะ?"
แต่ขอเถอะ ซักครั้ง ให้มันพังกันไป ให้ความเครียดมัน มลายหายไป แล้วเริ่มใหม่แบบกล้าแกร่งในปีนี้
ซึ่งผมกลับมาดีขึ้นนะ แต่ก็ยังพากย์แย่เหมือนเดิม ผมได้กลับมาดูตัวเองพากย์ในทุกๆ วัน ทุกๆ ครั้งที่ว่าง มันแย่ มันแย่ถึงที่สุด
ความสนุกเราหายไป แต่หลังจากนี้เราจะแก้ไข ฝากทุกคนติดตามด้วยนะครับ ใน TI9 ผมจะทำให้เต็มที่ครับ
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กลับมาเรื่องทำไม ถึงย้าย Platform จาก Twitch มา Facebook
ข้อแรก - ผมต้องการก้าวไปสู่ในยุคใหม่ๆ ที่ต้องการอะไรใหม่ๆ จากเดิมที่มีอยู่ ผมรู้สึกว่าครั้งนี้ ก็เหมือน ครั้งที่ลาออกจากงานประจำ ไปค้นหาอะไรใหม่ๆ ในโลกใหม่นั่นเอง
ข้อสอง - เมื่อบางอย่างถึงทางตัน เราต้องย้อนกลับไปเริ่มต้นใหม่ ในที่ใหม่ ... เพราะผมไม่รู้หรอกว่า สิ่งที่ผมอยู่ ผมจะมีอะไรในอนาคตไหม? ทั้งนี้ไม่ได้ Platform ที่จากไม่ดี ผมเห็นน้องๆ หน้าใหม่ หลายคนเติบโตในนั้น เยอะมาก ผมดีใจกับเค้านะ ... ซึ่งการพากย์ของผมมันเก่าแล้ว ผมอยากทำอะไรใหม่ๆ ในที่ใหม่ๆ เหมือนกับน้องๆ กลุ่มนั้นบ้างเหมือนกันหล่ะ
ข้อสาม - เพื่ออนาคต เพื่อทางบ้าน และ ตัวเอง คำนี้อาจจะเห็นแก่ตัวกับคนที่ประกาศ กับคนดูมาตลอดว่า "ทำเพื่อ Community" แน่นอนผมแคร์ Community มากๆ ถามว่าเห็นแก่ตัวเองไหม ก็ส่วนนึง แต่ถ้าเห็น แก่ตัวเองมากๆ ผมคงไปอยู่อีกที่นึงแล้ว ในค่ายทะเล ต้องบอกอย่างนึงว่า ... ถ้าผมทำงานบางที่ แค่ 6 เดือน แล้วได้เวลาในอนาคต มาประมาณ 4 ปีที่ทำอยู่ทุกวันนี้เลยทีเดียวครับ
ข้อสี่ - ผมปวดใจทุกครั้งที่ต้องทิ้งคน Subs มาร่วมเกือบ 3 ปี หรือจะ 2 ปี หรือ จะ 1 ปี แม้กระทั้ง 1 เดือนแรกก็ตาม แต่ผมขอฝากไว้ตรงนี้ ผมจะพยายามตอบแทนที่คุณ support ผมมาตลอด ผมจะดึงเข้ากลุ่ม Discord (ซึ่งจะ Update ในเร็วๆ นี้) และ พูดคุย จัดมิตติ้ง ในทุกๆ 3 เดือน มาพบปะกันบ่อยๆ ให้เรารักกันมากขึ้น เพราะที่ผ่านมาผมทำได้แค่เพียงพูดขอบคุณ คุณเท่านั้น ย้ำอีกครั้ง ผมไม่ทิ้งคุณ ผมสัญญา
ข้อห้า - ผมจะไม่พูดถึงเรื่อง ม่วงดียังไง ฟ้าดียังไง แต่ผมจะพูดแค่ว่า ผมเคารพ ทุกคำติชม และ ขอโอกาสอีกซักครั้งในการทำงานในที่ใหม่ และ หวังว่าคนดูจะเข้าใจผม หรือถ้าไม่เข้าใจ ผมพร้อมคุย และ กราบขอโทษในสิ่งที่ผมให้ไม่ได้จริงๆ ผมเสียใจจริงๆ ผมคิดมากทุกครั้งที่มีเรื่องนี้มาในหัว แต่ผมจะรับฟัง และ ขอโทษ ทำมันให้ดี จนกว่าทุกคนจะเข้าใจ ผมสัญญา
จริงๆ มีอีกหลายเรื่องที่ผมอยากพิมพ์เพิ่มเติม แต่ขอเป็นประเด็นๆ สำคัญแค่เพียงเท่านี้ก็พอ
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ทุกวันนี้ความสุขผมคืออะไร ผมได้ผ่านพ้นช่วงเวลาอันเลวร้ายมาแล้ว มาเริ่มต้นใหม่ ทำอะไรใหม่ๆ และ ขอโอกาสคนดูทุกคนอีกซักครั้ง ให้ผมได้ พิสูจน์ ว่าผมเป็นคนเดิม และ คนที่ดีกว่าเดิม
อะไรที่เละเทะ หรือทำไม่ดีกับใคร ผมก็ขอโทษมา ณ ที่นี้ด้วยนะครับ
อย่างที่บอก เพื่อนผมสมัยประถม ล้อผมว่า "ไอ้บ้าเกม" มาตั้งแต่ตอนนั้น แต่ผมก็ไม่เคยจะหยุดรักมันเลย เอาจริงๆ นะ และวันนี้ผมทำให้ใครต่อใคร หลายคนเค้าเห็นจริงๆ ว่า
"ไอ้บ้าเกม คนนี้ ได้ทำตามความฝันของเค้าได้สำเร็จแล้วนะ!!"
"แล้วพวกนายทำบ้าอะไรอยู่หล่ะ ตอนที่ล้อฉันอยู่?"
เอาความโกรธเป็นแรงผลักดัน มากกว่าที่จะแสดงออก นี่หล่ะ คือ ทางของผม
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สุดท้ายนี้
อาจจะตลกร้ายสำหรับการ ย้ายค่าย เบอร์เดิม
แต่ผมก็รักคนดู รัก DotA2 สุดหัวใจเหมือนเดิมครับ
รักทุกคน และ ขอทำมันให้ดีที่สุด ในวันใหม่ วันต่อๆ ไป
เพราะ "ฉันจะพากย์ต่อไป จนฉันหมดแรง"
ยินดีต้อนรับเข้าสู่ดินแดนใหม่ Facebook Gaming
ขอบพระคุณ Youtube และ Twitch บ้านหลังเก่า
ขอบพระคุณคนดูทุกคน และ ผู้ใหญ่ในวงการทุกคน
ที่ช่วยเหลือผมให้เป็นผมทุกวันนี้
ยินดีต้อนรับเข้าสู่บ้านหลังใหม่ของผมครับ
>> Cyberclasher Caster <<
แล้วมามันส์กันให้สุดขั้วใน TI9 ครับ
รักและขอบคุณ
แบงก์ - ไซเบอร์แคลซเชอร์
กิติภัทร กาญจนาพิพัชร์
Let's meet again... Every time I write it, I cry...
If a typo is right, sorry. Type to cry. T _ T
Thank you.
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Years ago 2011-2015...
When I look at a match or even a brother who knows how to play Dota, even kids who play in the game shop... I cry every time and I feel like it.
I can only tell myself that I am from what I like. How can we go back?
Will we dare to leave a full time job? Can we do it? Can it raise someone at home? So what will it get back? From doing this, we can make people happy. But if we are suffering, who should we turn to?
This question has been around in my head for many years until 2016, I decided to break my leg to step into a new place where we love and make it the best I can.
In 2016, I quit my job and came back to dub Dota2 in full time. I have a lot of dub. It makes someone to watch at a certain level and never stop. There may be sick. I can complain but I never stop.
Why? Because I like Dota, but it doesn't mean I hate other games. I love gaming. There is a lot to find in our role.
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In 2017, the leap era, I joined Platform Twitch that is considered starting the Streamer at support, a full-time Entertainment commentator like me.
It makes me happy to live and feed my family. Even though Donations or subs have a lot of inversions with the views, I always say that I always say that
"Just come to see me, it's my support"
In 2017 I have had a great opportunity in many jobs such as Manila Masters and the highest dream that came fast. That's how to dub the sidelines in the internationals.
I didn't think I would go as myself. I went as a Thai person who was at that point. It was so fun. It was the best experience and the happiest once in my life.
Even if there are some mistakes, I can't do some bad things because my body, but I keep doing it. I just say to myself that I will be more focused and apologize to the audience regularly. We can't do. Come out what we want or others want.
" But I have to say that I smile more than crying this year
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In 2018, it was my dark age. It was like a clear brightness in 2017 and then it was out in half a year after 2018
If anyone follows, of course I have a few problems at home. There will be a word " We want to spend money? But we have to make money by ourselves without borrowing someone else "
In 2018, it was a very good era in the first half of the year. Everything was good. I tend to have money to buy a house that would expand the dub or small studio.
But then it fell apart because... 1. got cheated by GESC 2. got cheated by Bitcoin which is still going on and will handle it to the max.
It's a lot of Fail. A brother once said this is a result of people who don't know how to spend money and I want too much for other people "
This word has been around in my head for months.
Of course this hits my dub. It makes me not concentrate like I have to be sad. I have to make my best at that hour to send the most fun to the audience and keep it. Suffering alone
" Ask me if it's depression? Almost from the test results "
Later in the end of 2018, I have come across the sad things that make me foolish. It haunts me every second I'm free or even if anyone says this in front of us, we will feel bad. Old photos. Come to hurt us all the time
You guys will notice why I don't go anywhere. Why I'm getting worse. Why I don't look wild like before. That's why I got cheated. All money.
Many people may say "Money doesn't die, find a new one"
But then I have to think, " That's my whole life money
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Started in 2019
I have tried to do everything to forget it and try to fix many things. I spent all my personal money to go to Japan to remove it in some of them.
Because in the past, there are tiger brothers and sisters who cry. That's my idols (including other adults). Now there is always hashtag to help me.
Sounds controversial, right?
" I don't have money. Are you going to travel?"
But please, let it be broken. Let the stress go away and start over strong this year.
Which I come back better, but still bad dub. I come back to see myself every day. Every day. It's bad. It's the worst.
Our fun is gone. But after this, we will fix it. Please follow. In TI9 I will do my best.
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Why did you move platform from Twitch to Facebook?
First - I want to move on to a new era where I want something new. I feel like this time I quit my full time to find something new in the new world.
Second - When something comes to a dead end, we have to start again... because I don't know what I am, I will have anything in the future? I didn't get a bad platform. I saw many new sisters growing up in there. I'm happy for them... My dub is old. I want to do something new places like that group too.
Number three - for the future, for my family and myself, it may be selfish to those who have announced that "do it for community" of course, I care very much. Ask me if it's a part of myself. But if I see myself, I see myself, I would be very much. I have been in another place in the sea camp. I have to say... If I work somewhere for only 6 months, it's time for about 4 years that I have been doing these days.
Number four - I feel heartache every time I have to leave Subs for almost 3 years or 2 years or 1 years. Even the first 1 months, but I would like to leave it here. I will try to pay back for you. Support me all the time. I will pull into discord group (which will update soon) and talk to meet each other often. Let us love each other more because I can only say thank you. I repeat, I don't leave you. I promise.
Number five - I won't talk about purple, but I will only say that I respect all feedback and give me one more chance to work in a new place and hope that people understand me or if I'm ready to talk. And I apologize for what I can't give. I'm really sorry. I think too much every time I have something in my head. But I will listen and apologize. Do it well until everyone understands. I promise.
In fact, there are many more things I want to type, but I want to be an important point. Just like this.
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What is my happiness nowadays? I have gone through bad times. Let's start again and give me another chance to watch. Let me prove that I am the same person and better person.
Anything that is messed up or bad to anyone, I'm sorry for here.
As I told my friend in elementary school, I was "crazy" since then, but I never stopped loving it. Seriously, and today I really made many people see that
" This asshole has successfully followed his dream!!"
" So what the hell are you doing while you're kidding me?"
Taking anger as a motivation than to express. This is my way.
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Finally.
Might be funny for moving the same number of camp
But I love the audience. I love Dota2 with all my heart as always.
Love you all and do your best in the next day.
Because "I will continue to dub until I am exhausted"
Welcome to the new land Facebook Gaming
Thank you Youtube and Twitch. Old house.
Thank you to all the audience and all adults in the industry.
For helping me be me nowadays
Welcome to my new home.
>> @[653384451397698:274:Cyberclasher Caster] <<
Let's have fun to the extreme in TI9
Love and thank you
Bank - cyber clasher
Kitiphat cuddle, Kanchanaburi Pip cuddle charTranslated
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Lyrics:
Drown my thoughts through the seasons
You pull me in just to spit me out
When you came crashing through my walls
Failing to break me from my fall
Break my heart, but don’t let me in
Drag me down your hell in the end
I’m on my own this love wasted on you
And I hate how we
Drift away now, drift away now
Burning one last time
Close your eyes
Lets get lost tonight
Feel my love never let us go
Don’t ever let us fall apart
(please save me)
One last breath
Till’ our hearts collide
We’ll never make it out alive
Don’t leave our love behind
(I’m on my)
Deep inside felt my senses
The memories chain you to my heart
You were the one to leave goodbye
But how could I see you from inside
Hold me tight I’m wrapped in your chains
Split me black through all the remains
I’m on my own this love wasted on you
And I hate how we
Drift away now, drift away now
Burning one last time
Close your eyes
Lets get lost tonight
Feel my love never let us go
Don’t ever let us fall apart
(please save me)
One last breath
Till’ our hearts collide
We’ll never make it out alive
Don’t leave our love behind
(I’m on my)
Deep inside felt my senses
The memories chain you to my heart
You were the one to leave goodbye
But how could I see you from inside
hate to see your heart break 在 Afrina Zulkifli Youtube 的最佳解答
Date : 19th January 2018
Venue: Manchester Arena
SET LIST
1. Hard Times (00:43 - 01:40)
2. Ignorance (01:41 - 02:24)
3. Still Into You (02:25 - 03:00)
4. Forgiveness (03:02 - 03:37)
5. Fake Happy (03:38 - 04:50)
6. That's What You Get (04:51-06:25)
7. I Caught Myself (06:26 - 07:13)
8. Pool (07:14 - 7:58)
9. Hate to See Your Heart Break (09:38 - 10:57)
10. 26 (10:58 - 11:14)
11.Caught in the Middle (11:15 - 11:57)
12. Told You So (11:58 - 12:50)
13. Idle Worship (12:51 - 13:50)
14. No Friend
15. Misery Business (14:15 - 18:04)
16. Ain't It Fun (18:05 - 19:44)
Encore
17. Grow Up (19:45 - 20:22)
18. French Class (20:23 - 20:42)
19. Rose-Colored Boy (26:51 - 28:07)
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Lyrics:
Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I never mind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If you wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her
All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She is the only thing you ever see
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me
I hate you, I love you,
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her