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異度空間恐怖APP: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6PiyPZ3d_Fw&t=12s

首支單曲: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UASHWB6Ai9Y

鬼故事: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-CfqxuCHq3Y&t=3s

我的成長故事: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kdhtp6A6YJE

我講 '香港' 10,000次: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-G4uDe3QUfs

我受夠了, 我的精神困擾: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQ6uxaQhiS4&t=7s

24小時內學印度話: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g3EmtyVK1BQ&t=55s


回憶我兩年前拍過的虐畜影片
拍虐畜影片這些事 (我的親身經歷)

2017年11月到2018年6月是我拍片生崖當中, 我所稱為 ‘尷尬期’ 的時段. 我當時是想由拍英文鬼故頻道影片同時希望轉型生活類型影片和講東話影片. 出來的效果就是一大堆又煩又cho又不好笑又沒人看又常常得罪人的誇張內容. 不要要求我給你看, 因為這些影片現時已被刪除.

暗網仔出街的觀眾大家好! 我今天想懺悔當中拍了一部I feel ashamed and guilty i ever did it. 在這裡講這段故事改變不了什麼也叫不回所造成的傷害. 大家也歡迎看完這條影片之後不再支持我. 但我怕今天不拍出這條片我日後不會講出這個故事但uw yeen會想起而後fooy. 多謝你們給我一個機會去講.
神父 我有罪!

[跟倉鼠生活48小時]
2018年6月16號我上載了一條養一隻倉鼠兩天的影片. 長達8分27秒的影片嘗試混合 ‘實驗型’ 影片和 ‘?物型’ 影片, 完全為了拿views. 由那兩天不同的時間點去講做寵物主人難chui, lut look的地方. Suen便搞笑.
影片一開頭去商店買倉鼠是我第一次拍攝時被質問的情況, 挺值得講. 因為只是照顧兩天的關係倉鼠生活的環境完全不理想, 只是放他在買回來的箱子中生活. 因為影片需要新鮮感我會在不同時間拍他還有不同地點去拍他. 當時我完全沒有意圖繼續yoing這隻小動物, 所以最後過了48小時我轉yoing比我更有愛心的兄弟yoing. 幾個月後這位倉鼠也離開了我們.

上載這條影片後有網友説每一次拍這隻小動物的時候他樣子也很害怕和焦慮. 由Muk生環境加上我每次突然間的拍攝引起. 但當時chuw luw的我只是當這個小生命跟拍片的工具沒兩分別. What are you doing man? Having to watch this video now makes me suffer. Hing hung當時這些影片沒有人看, 否則我一定繼續拍下去.

其實我記得小時候的我挺有愛心的. 9到11歲有yoing一隻倉鼠的我, 有pet這樣東西在童年也jim一個挺重要的部分.
我記得當年su假我去了香港leuy hung. 原本我媽媽應該照顧我隻chung mut. 之後她無la la又自己由加拿大飛去香港將我隻倉鼠交給一班挺Heartless的family friend. 我是說他們全家. 我當時knew something bad was going to happen because they tried to like tried to use a hose to spray my hamster before and torture and have a history of treating animals like not lives. I remember my mom went back before me and she said when she got my pet back he was so quiet and in a few days died. He was abused, my mom even said so herself.
I couldn’t even see his last time and he was buried. I remember getting off the plane crying in the shower. After when I talked about everyone just laughed at me and called it just a pet. And everyone pretended like nothing happened, next topic. But for a time he was my best friend.

Ever since that day I never bonded with animals again, because I was like: they are just animals. Like garbage. But it’s not true. They are living beings and friends. And I see that now.

I think I’m feeling like this because the way I treated the hamster is the way my hamster died. And I feel guilty for my childhood and now.
That’s why I needed to Film this video today.
[my first pet]


[owning a pet for views, the good way and the bad way to do it.]

I want to start by acknowledging their are good youtubers who raise pets. And I feel the key to doing this properly is to really in your heart, feel that connection to the pet. Not use it for views.
我有follow一位叫yanki, 即是火guy姐的女生常常post有關animal abuse這個問題. She constantly does it and reminds everyone it is a huge problem. Suey yeen我之前拍那一條影片某ching do上是這方面一個不好的教材. 但我現在可以做的是下面有一條link是一個有關這方面的documentary, roing大家了解更多. 也希望世間上所有ley hoi的小倉鼠也可以得到安息吧! Bye bye.

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異度空間恐怖APP: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6PiyPZ3d_Fw&t=12s

首支單曲: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UASHWB6Ai9Y

鬼故事: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-CfqxuCHq3Y&t=3s

我的成長故事: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kdhtp6A6YJE

我講 '香港' 10,000次: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-G4uDe3QUfs

我受夠了, 我的精神困擾: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQ6uxaQhiS4&t=7s

24小時內學印度話: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g3EmtyVK1BQ&t=55s

最後發現我有1種強迫症!
發現我有1種強迫症!
發現我有身體聚焦強迫症!
發現我有一種強迫症!
我有身體聚焦重複行為障礙 (強迫症的一種)-精神問題
發現我有身體聚焦強迫症!
最近看杜汶凙喱騷講強迫症的題目令我想到今年加拿大疫情最差時自己也表示有強迫症的症狀: 咬手指. (Show clip)片中他提及的數格子等的強迫症行為其實我小時候每隔地上走過兩步格子會喜歡跪一次在地上. 睡覺前數自己眨多少次眼, 不能有6或者6有關或pooy數. 例如: 6,12, 16, 18也不行. 因為6是魔鬼的號碼. 如果眨了6次眼要馬上眨到7,8, 或9. 或when I use to sit in the car I needed to use both sides of my hand to touch the car window. 4 times with both hands. I don’t even know why.
長大後我慢慢tou ley這些重複性的精神狀態. 這些年唯一陪伴我的是咬手指.
今天的身分拍這條影片不是而暗網仔的身分去拍, 而是為我自己找出答案. 因為彈琴或任何要show手指的行為有時都會有goo leuy. 因為不漂亮.
I know theirs a billion people will worst tragic fates than me and this is such a stupid small problem but this channel is for me to express my self.

這幾天找到原來這類型的強迫症學名叫 ‘身體聚焦重複行為障礙’ 是你重複obsessively對自己肉身做成的創傷. 這個koy kuet名詞令我發現自己某一些其他我曾經以為正常的行為也其實是強迫症. 當然咬手指是我最明顯的symptom. But like biting my lips, bitinh the inside of my mouth (like this) biting other parts of my hand, picking my bitten fingernails. Scratching my eyes inner part, before my elbows I constantly scratched for no reason. It’s almost like self harm.
I used to think everyone did this at least bit their lips.

Now the reasons for this some believe is anxiety. But honestly I bite my hands when I’m either bored or thinking. I think it’s a mixture because when I upload a video and I’m writing the tags and all that I’m both thinking but also anxious because I’m nervous about the video performance. So I think for me it’s both those things.

Now a cause of 身體聚焦重複行為障礙或BFRB有一些人説有自己問題外還有遺傳成分. 因為我也真的見過長booy有scratch themselves的習慣.

My solution: after watching this video they told me that the solution is not to stop yourself from the impulse of doing these things before that’ll only make you want to do it more. Actually it is to be conscious in that moment that you want to do this and do another action as a replacement. So what I did is I pretend I’m playing the piano every time I get this self harm impulse. Strange it when I do this my mouth still moves and if I were biting my nails or my lips and yesterday I caught myself constantly want to bite.
But over time it has gotten easier. And I think with enough effort I can stop this. Because honestly my nails are traumatized beyond belief and it’s been so long time I’ve had to cut nails because they don’t grow and is so weak. When I scratch an itch it feels weak. Like it’s gotta fall off. And it’s just...I don’t want that you know so let’s try to change it.

Thanks for letting me make this weird video bye.