Since the day Layla was born, I've been faced with dilemmas every single day. Shld i carry her or let her play on her own? Shld i let her nap longer or wake her up? Shld i let her nap first or shower first? Shld i change her diaper before or after feeding her? Omg.. the worse would be those in the wee hours in the morning. Shld i pump or shld i wait to latch?
Every stage will present new dilemmas. The last 2 days have been utterly exhausting. Since Day 0, Layla's been sleeping w somebody in her room. First was the confinement nanny, after she left, my helper took over. At 4m old, i decided it was time for Layla to start sleeping on her own, since she started sleeping 7pm-7am for quite a few nights already.
I'm not sure if it's sleep regression or her feeling insecure sleeping in the room alone - 2 nights ago, she woke up 5 times. 😭😭 It was especially hard bcos I've nv successfully put her to bed without nursing her before. So at the same time, i also had to teach her to disassociate Mama to milk only. She was confused and crying when i pat her instead of feeding her. SO TIRING!
I kept asking myself. Am i doing the right thing? Why am i doing this to myself? I can just continue with how things were, let my helper sleep w her. Nothing has to change! It would be so much easier for both Layla and i. But deep inside, i know I'm doing the right thing. I just need to not let this fatigue trick me into giving in!
Seriously though, no matter how tired i am. When i see her face in the morning with that huge toothless grin, everything just make sense, everything is worth it. 🥰
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