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【天青色等煙雨，而我在等你】(English writing below)

我看著客人眼淚
滴滴答答的打在桌面上
筆記本
濕了
本子上的字
糊了

她的心酸
猶如洪泉遇到崩裂的堤壩
一波一浪的破牆而出

一個被愛情辜負的女子
看了真是心疼

我不由自覺的
想到了自己

你懂我的
像我這樣剛烈的女子
爲了愛情
我絕不退縮
祇是一個勇字
又豈能成事呢

童年
過得心驚膽顫
家裡常吵得
雞犬不寧

爸爸沒想要
把我生下
媽媽常說
要把我趕出去

我很努力讀書
我很努力做個乖孩子
我覺得我做得很好
人小小本事很大
但這些終究無法
讓我在美滿的家庭長大

多少個夜晚裡
我被媽媽打得
想奪門而出
永不再見
可是想到誰來照顧她
我又忍下來

我很恨
為何我命運不如人

第一次談戀愛時
我是多麼多麼的雀躍
內心裡的煙花
不斷地爆開
我終於等到了
不再是
沒人要的孩子了

我終於
值得有人愛了

初戀的絢麗
卻也如七彩美麗的煙花
一聲巨響後
就消失在漆黑的夜裡

他常常在我面前
提到他如何深愛著
他中學時的校花
她是如此的美好

有一次
這校花來我們的學校
他得知後
破課室的門而出
沒見到她
他哭了一整個星期

心中的不安
讓我常常與他吵架
三年零八個月裡
我不是一個好女友
服滿兵役後
他喜歡上大學迎新會
的一位混血兒

後來
我和一位校友打了幾次桌球
某夜
他在ICQ向我索吻
對他的印象
就一落千丈了
（你以為老娘在賤賣嗎？）
不久一位朋友告訴我
他約會的對象
不只我一個

我有一位
很好很好的朋友
我在新加坡時
他常陪我
深夜打桌球到清晨
聊佛法聊人生
一起上佛學班
一起學國標舞
從未有一個人
如此瞭解我的心
如此照顧著我

但無所不談的當兒
他也不斷告訴
這麼多年來
他如何愛念著
一個女孩
對她始終無法忘懷

我又輸給
活在記憶中的人了

我這一份單戀
長達兩年
很磨人很磨人很磨人
差一點走不出來

第二次談戀愛
他常在我面前提起
一個他追了半年追不到的女孩
他說
有一天一定要去問她
為什麼不選擇他

在家裡的毒打
並沒有隨著我成人
而停止

後來拜師學藝
卻因爲品德不良
被師父一句
「你不是我要找的人。」
斷然吃了閉門羹

那天我哭得痛徹心扉
覺得自己
好像是
個沒人要的孩子

方文山因爲
八百年前
宋徽宗皇帝御批的這句
「雨過天青雲破處」
而在周傑倫《青花瓷》裡
寫了『天青色等煙雨，而我在等你』

他說
愛情里最無力的無奈
就是「等待」
天青色得等待
不知何時會降的雨
雨停
積雲散去
朗朗晴空中
天青色才能顯現
如同我
只能被动而安静的
等待着
不知何时才会出现的妳。

慢慢的
我開始認為
我這輩子等不到了
月老應該沒幫我
綁上紅線

學佛多年後
忽然恍然大悟
一個道理
没有东西是必须拥有的
沒有它
也不代表自己的不足

愛情
是一個填不滿的慾望
所以愛情劇長紅

在2015年2月21日年初三，根本上師蓮生活佛在台灣中天綜合電視台的訪談中說：https://youtu.be/EPDxwSt6a5I （時間12:08）

「師尊本身的愛是這樣的。我既然愛她，就是要她幸福，不是要佔有她，這種愛不是佔有，其實愛不是佔有。如果愛是佔有的話，那就是屬於慾望。如果愛不是佔有，我是祝福她，雖然我愛她，她不愛我，她愛別人，我就祝福她。如果愛別人會比較幸福，我就祝福她。這種愛就不是佔有的愛。如果是佔有的愛，一定會產生痛苦。」

原來我真正在等的
是自己
自己的智慧開了
心變闊達時
才不會讓他人決定
自己幾時可以幸福
可以幸福多久
命運在我手中
怎麼走本來就是我說了算

我輕輕的拿起桌上的紙巾，遞給女客人。她一把鼻涕，一把眼淚的向我道謝。

借了師父慣用的笑話，我柔聲細語的說：「別哭，新加坡缺水，要哭要到蓄水池哭，這樣我們可以少看馬來西亞的臉色做人。」

她破涕而笑。

我再說：「我看了妳的八字，現在又看到妳真人，勸你跟我講話老實一點，要不然我幫不到妳。妳明明一直做人家的小三，還敢跟我哭沒有男人要和妳結婚？妳不也偷偷拿了他不少錢嗎？我看妳明明就是一張愛錢的臉。」

奉勸各位大俠，在我面前，若要用眼淚爲武器，請三思，因爲虛偽的，我必定拆你面具。

..........................

I looked at the teardrops of my client, pitter patter onto the table top. My client's notebook got wet. The words got muddled.

All the pains in her heart were like the angry river crushing through a broken dam, tearing down the walls as the tears flowed.

To see a lady being let down by love was indeed heart-breaking.

I couldn't help but thought of myself.

You know me. An unyielding character like mine will not shrink like a coward in the name of love. Alas, there are things in life that can't be accomplished solely with courage.

My childhood was filled with a lot of fear. There were often quarrels at home.

My dad didn't want me to be born. My mum often said she wanted to chase me out of the house.

I studied very hard. I did my utmost to be an obedient kid, and I thought I did very well as young child but I was already very capable. However, all these were not enough for me to grow up in a complete family.

So many nights, I got beaten up so badly by my mum that I wanted to just break out of the door and never to see her again. But the mere thought of nobody looking after her pulled me back.

I hated so much. Why wasn't my destiny comparable to other people?

When I first fell in love, I was so elated. The fireworks in my heart exploded non-stop. I finally found someone. I was no longer that child which nobody wanted. I was finally worthy of someone's love.

The splendour of first love, however, was as temporal as the rainbow-coloured fireworks. After a loud explosion, it vanished into the darkness of night.

He would often tell me in my face, how much he pined for and loved his secondary school crush, apparently the prettiest and most perfect girl in school.

Once, this campus belle came to our school. When he got wind of the news, he dashed out of the classroom. Failing to see her, he cried for one whole week.

My insecurity caused me to quarrel with him often. In those 3 years and 8 months, I wasn't a great girlfriend. After his NS, he got together with a girl of mixed blood at his university's Orientation camp.

I played pool with a uni mate a few times. One night over ICQ, he teased me for a kiss. My impression of him dropped like hot cakes. Did I look like I was lelong-ing myself? Later, a girl pal told me that he was dating several girls at the same time.

I had a very good friend. Whenever I was in Singapore, he would accompany me to play pool till wee hours. We talked about Dharma, life, and we attended Buddhism and ballroom dancing classes together. I had never met a person who understood me and took care of me so well.

But among our endless conversations of everything and anything, he always told me how he still loved a girl from his school. He couldn't forget her.

Again, I lost to someone who lived in the memory of the guy I liked.

This one-sided love of mine burned for two years. It was very, very, very excruciating. I almost didn't make it out alive.

In my second relationship, the boyfriend would always tell me about a pretty girl whom he pursued for half a year, but failed to win her heart. He told me firmly that if he had the chance, he wanted to ask her why she did not choose him.

The abusive beating at home did not stop even after I grew up.

Later on, when I wanted to become Shifu's disciple, he turned me down flat because he didn't think I had good morals and values. He was blunt, "You are not the person I am looking for."

That night, I cried painfully hard. Suddenly, I felt like I was the kid from my childhood whom nobody wanted.

800 years ago, Emperor Huizong of Song Dynasty wrote in an imperial decree "雨過天青雲破處". It was this that inspired Vincent Fang (方文山) to write the lyrics 『天青色等煙雨，而我在等你』in Jay Chou's song 青花瓷 (Blue and white porcelain).

Vincent Fang said, the most powerless kind of helplessness in love was waiting.

The sky green colour had to wait for the rain, which it had no idea when it would arrive. After the rain stopped, the thick clouds dissipated, in the clear skies, the sky green colour would then be able to appear. This was just like how he could only passively and quietly wait, for his lady whom he had no idea when she would appear.

Gradually, I started thinking that in this lifetime, I would not be able to wait for that person to appear. Perhaps Yue Lao (the elderly celestial under the moon) did not tie the red string on me.

After many years of learning the Dharma, one day, I suddenly came to the realisation that nothing is a must to own.

Secular love is a black hole of desires. That is why romantic shows are evergreen.

On 21 February 2015, the 3rd day of the Lunar New Year, my Root Guru Living Buddha Lian-Sheng spoke in an interview with the Taiwan CTI Television Inc.: https://youtu.be/EPDxwSt6a5I （timestamp 12:08）

"My personal take on love is this. Since I love her, I will want her to be blissful, and not to possess her. Such love isn't possession. Actually love isn't possession. If love is possession, that belongs to desire. If love isn't desire, I will wish her well. Although I love her, she doesn't love me, but loves another person, so I will give her my best wishes. If loving another person brings her more happiness, I will wish her well. Such love isn't possessive love. If it is possessive love, there will surely be pain."

Then I realised, the one that I had been waiting all along for is myself. Waiting for my wisdom to develop, waiting for my heart to be more open, so that I would not place my happiness in the hands of another person, and let the person decide for me when I should be happy, for how long I can stay happy...

My destiny is in my hands. How it pans out is up to me to say.

I gently picked up a serviette from the table and passed it to my lady client. In a mush of mucus and tears, she thanked me.

Borrowing an old joke from Shifu, I gently told her, "Don't cry. Singapore lacks water. If you want to cry, you should cry at a nearby reservoir. This way, we don't have to see the colours of Malaysia in order to get more water."

She broke into a smile among her tears.

I continued, "After looking at your Bazi, and now that I have seen you in person, I advise you to be more honest with me, or else I will not be able to help you. You have all along been a mistress to other men, and you dare to come crying to me that no man wanted to marry you? Didn't you also stole some money from them? The way I see you, you obviously have a money grubber face."

My advice to all swordsmen: If you wish to use your tears as a weapon in front of me, think thrice. Because if you are a hypocrite, I will definitely rip your mask apart.

【天青色等煙雨，而我在等你】(English writing below)

我看著客人眼淚
滴滴答答的打在桌面上
筆記本
濕了
本子上的字
糊了

她的心酸
猶如洪泉遇到崩裂的堤壩
一波一浪的破牆而出

一個被愛情辜負的女子
看了真是心疼

我不由自覺的
想到了自己

你懂我的
像我這樣剛烈的女子
爲了愛情
我絕不退縮
祇是一個勇字
豈能成事

童年
過得心驚膽顫
家裡常吵得
雞犬不寧

爸爸沒想要
把我生下
媽媽常說
要把我趕出去

我很努力讀書
我很努力做個乖孩子
我覺得我做得很好
人小小本事很大
但這些終究無法
讓我在美滿的家庭長大

多少個夜晚裡
我被媽媽打得
想奪門而出
永不再見
可是想到誰來照顧她
我又忍下來

我很恨
為何我命運不如人

第一次談戀愛時
我是多麼多麼的雀躍
內心裡的煙花
不斷地爆開
我終於等到了
不再是
沒人要的孩子了

我終於
值得有人愛了

初戀的絢麗
卻也如七彩美麗的煙花
一聲巨響後
就消失在漆黑的夜裡

他常常在我面前
提到他如何深愛著
他中學時的校花
她是如此的美好

有一次
這校花來我們的學校
他得知後
破課室的門而出
沒見到她
他哭了一整個星期

心中的不安
讓我常常與他吵架
三年零八個月裡
我不是一個好女友
服滿兵役後
他喜歡上大學迎新會
的一位混血兒

後來
我和一位校友打了幾次桌球
某夜
他在ICQ向我索吻
對他的印象
就一落千丈了
（你以為老娘在賤賣嗎？）
不久一位朋友告訴我
他約會的對象
不只我一個

我有一位
很好很好的朋友
我在新加坡時
他常陪我
深夜打桌球到清晨
聊佛法聊人生
一起上佛學班
一起學國標舞
從未有一個人
如此瞭解我的心
如此照顧著我

但無所不談的當兒
他也不斷告訴
這麼多年來
他如何愛念著
一個女孩
對她無法始終忘懷

我又輸給
活在記憶中的人了

我這一份單戀
長達兩年
很磨人很磨人很磨人
差一點走不出來

第二次談戀愛
他常在我面前提起
一個他追了半年追不到的女孩
他說
有一天一定要去問她
為什麼不選擇他

在家裡的毒打
並沒有隨著我成人
而停止

後來拜師學藝
卻因爲品德不良
被師父一句
「你不是我要找的人。」
斷然吃了閉門羹

那天我哭得痛徹心扉
覺得自己
好像是
個沒人要的孩子

方文山因爲
八百年前
宋徽宗皇帝御批的這句
「雨過天青雲破處」
而在周傑倫《青花瓷》裡
寫了『天青色等煙雨，而我在等你』

他說
爱情里最无力的无奈
就是「等待」
天青色得等待
不知何時會降的雨
雨停
积云散去
朗朗晴空中
天青色才能顯現
如同我
只能被动而安静的
等待着
不知何时才会出现的妳。

慢慢的
我開始認為
我這輩子等不到了
月老應該沒幫我
綁上紅線

學佛多年後
忽然恍然大悟
一個道理
没有东西是必须拥有的。
沒有它
也不代表自己的不足

愛情
是一個填不滿的慾望
所以愛情劇長紅

在2015年2月21日年初三，根本上師蓮生活佛在台灣中天綜合電視台的訪談中說：
「師尊本身的愛是這樣的。我既然愛她，就是要她幸福，不是要佔有她，這種愛不是佔有，其實愛不是佔有。如果愛是佔有的話，那就是屬於慾望。如果愛不是佔有，我是祝福她，雖然我愛她，她不愛我，她愛別人，我就祝福她。如果愛別人會比較幸福，我就祝福她。這種愛就不是佔有的愛。如果是佔有的愛，一定會產生痛苦。」

原來我真正在等的
是自己
自己的智慧開了
心變闊達時
才不會讓他人決定
自己幾時可以幸福
可以幸福多久
命運在我手中
怎麼走本來就是我說了算

我輕輕的拿起桌上的紙巾，遞給女客人。她一把鼻涕，一把眼淚的向我道謝。

借了師父慣用的笑話，我柔聲細語的說：『別哭，新加坡缺水，要哭要到蓄水池哭，這樣我們可以少看馬來西亞的臉色做人。』

她破涕而笑。

我再說：「我看了妳的八字，現在又看到妳真人，勸你跟我講話老實一點，要不然我幫不到妳。妳明明一直做人家的小三，還敢跟我哭沒有男人要和妳結婚？妳不也偷偷拿了他不少錢嗎？我看妳明明就是一張愛錢的臉。」

奉勸各位大俠，在我面前，若要用眼淚爲武器，請三思，因爲虛偽的，我必定拆你面具。

..........................

I looked at the teardrops of my client, pitter patter onto the table top. My client's notebook got wet. The words got muddled.

All the pains in her heart were like the angry river crushing through a broken dam, tearing down the walls as the tears flowed.

To see a lady being let down by love was indeed heart-breaking.

I couldn't help but thought of myself.

You know me. An unyielding character like mine will not shrink like a coward in the name of love. Alas, there are things in life that can't be accomplished solely with courage.

My childhood was filled with a lot of fear. There were often quarrels at home.

My dad didn't want me to be born. My mum often said she wanted to chase me out of the house.

I studied very hard. I did my utmost to be an obedient kid, and I thought I did very well as young child but I was already very capable. However, all these were not enough for me to grow up in a complete family.

So many nights, I got beaten up so badly by my mum that I wanted to just break out of the door and never to see her again. But the mere thought of nobody looking after her pulled me back.

I hated so much. Why wasn't my destiny comparable to other people?

When I first fell in love, I was so elated. The fireworks in my heart exploded non-stop. I finally found someone. I was no longer that child which nobody wanted. I was finally worthy of someone's love.

The splendour of first love, however, was as temporal as the rainbow-coloured fireworks. After a loud explosion, it vanished into the darkness of night.

He would often tell me in my face, how much he pined for and loved his secondary school crush, apparently the prettiest and most perfect girl in school.

Once, this campus belle came to our school. When he got wind of the news, he dashed out of the classroom. Failing to see her, he cried for one whole week.

My insecurity caused me to quarrel with him often. In those 3 years and 8 months, I wasn't a great girlfriend. After his NS, he got together with a girl of mixed blood at his university's Orientation camp.

I played pool with a uni mate a few times. One night over ICQ, he teased me for a kiss. My impression of him dropped like hot cakes. Did I look like I was lelong-ing myself? Later, a girl pal told me that he was dating several girls at the same time.

I had a very good friend. Whenever I was in Singapore, he would accompany me to play pool till wee hours. We talked about Dharma, life, and we attended Buddhism and ballroom dancing classes together. I had never met a person who understood me and took care of me so well.

But among our endless conversations of everything and anything, he always told me how he still loved a girl from his school. He couldn't forget her.

Again, I lost to someone who lived in the memory of the guy I liked.

This one-sided love of mine burned for two years. It was very, very, very excruciating. I almost didn't make it out alive.

In my second relationship, the boyfriend would always tell me about a pretty girl who he pursued for half a year, but failed to win her heart. He told me firmly that if he had the chance, he wanted to ask her why she did not choose him.

The abusive beating at home did not stop even after I grew up.

Later on, when I wanted to become Shifu's disciple, he turned me down flat because he didn't think I had good morals and values. He was blunt, "You are not the person I am looking for."

That night, I cried painfully hard. Suddenly, I felt like I was the kid from my childhood whom nobody wanted.

800 years ago, Emperor Huizong of Song Dynasty wrote in an imperial decree "雨過天青雲破處". It was this that inspired Vincent Fang (方文山) to write the lyrics 『天青色等煙雨，而我在等你』in Jay Chou's song 青花瓷 (Blue and white porcelain).

Vincent Fang said, the most powerless form of helplessness in love is waiting.

The sky green colour had to wait for the rain, which it had no idea when it would arrive. After the rain stopped, the thick clouds dissipated, in the clear skies, the sky green colour would then be able to appear. This was just like how he could only passively and quietly wait, for his lady whom he had no idea when she would appear.

Gradually, I started thinking that in this lifetime, I would not be able to wait for that person to appear. Perhaps Yue Lao (the elderly celestial under the moon) did not tie the red string on me.

After many years of learning the Dharma, one day, I suddenly came to the realisation that nothing is a must to own.

Secular love is a black hole of desires. That is why romantic shows are evergreen.

On 21 February 2015, the 3rd day of the Lunar New Year, my Root Guru Living Buddha Lian-Sheng spoke in an interview with the Taiwan CTI Television Inc.:

"My personal take on love is this. Since I love her, I will want her to be blissful, and not to possess her. Such love isn't possession. Actually love isn't possession. If love is possession, that belongs to desire. If love isn't desire, I will wish her well. Although I love her, she doesn't love me, but loves another person, so I will give her my best wishes. If loving another person brings her more happiness, I will wish her well. Such love isn't possessive love. If it is possessive love, there will surely be pain."

Then I realised, the one that I had been waiting all along for is myself. Waiting for my wisdom to develop, waiting for my heart to be more open, so that I would not place my happiness in the hands of another person, and let the person decide for me when I should be happy, for how long I can stay happy...

My destiny is in my hands. How it pans out is up to me to say.

I gently picked up a serviette from the table and passed it to my lady client. In a mush of mucus and tears, she thanked me.

Borrowing an old joke from Shifu, I gently told her, "Don't cry. Singapore lacks water. If you want to cry, you should cry at a nearby reservoir. This way, we don't have to see the colours of Malaysia in order to get more water."

She broke into a smile among her tears.

I continued, "After looking at your Bazi, and now that I have seen you in person, I advise you to be more honest with me, or else I will not be able to help you. You have all along been a mistress to other men, and you dare to come crying to me that no man wanted to marry you? Didn't you also stole some money from them? The way I see you, you obviously have a money grubber face."

My advice to all swordsmen: If you wish to use your tears as a weapon in front me, think thrice. Because if you are a hypocrite, I will definitely rip your mask apart.

去年的大港,終於看到我最喜歡的PTP

我永遠無法忘記那時候的感動

哭到眼淚和鼻嚏都糊在一起

但是以後永遠看不到了

拜託告訴我們這是在開玩笑

你永遠是我最喜歡的主唱

你的歌聲和帶給我們的感動會永遠活在我們心中

R.I.P K

訃報

Pay money To my Painのボーカリストとしてデビュー以来多くの人に愛され続けていたKこと後藤慶が平成24年12月30日 朝、急性心不全のため横浜市内の自宅で逝去いたしました。31歳というあまりに早すぎる旅立ちでした。
なお、葬儀はご遺族の意向により近親者のみで執り行われます。

昨年は精神的な疾患による体調不良で、大変苦しんだ時期が何度もありました。6月には最初の入院をする事態となりコンディションが整わず不本意なライブになってしまったこともありましたが、自分との闘いに打ち勝ち、徐々にKらしさを取り戻していきました。夏に出演したイベントでは、“これぞPTP”というパフォーマンスを見せ、自主イベントHOUSE OF CHAOSは完全復活を印象付けるライブでした。しかしそれも束の間、10月に入り再度入院しツアーキャンセルと既に活動休止の事態となったことは先にお知らせした通りです。その後Kは自らの病気と真剣に向き合い、克服してファンの皆様の前で元気な姿を見せられるよう地道にリハビリを続けていました。12/27にはメンバー4人で集まり今後の復帰プランを話しあう予定でしたが、Kが急遽体調を崩してしまった事もあり、改めて、年明けに行われる事になっていました。12/29にKからメンバーに届いた「年明けにみんなで会おう」というメールが、奇しくも最後の彼からのメールとなってしまいました。そんな中でのあまりに突然の事に、メンバー含め全てのスタッフがPay money To my Painとして共に走り続けてきたKという男を失ったことにとまどい悲しんでおります。
彼は常に強さと繊細さと共にありました。不器用で真っ直ぐな性格で、周りを振り回すこともありましたが、それ以上に人の気持ちを考える優しさを持った、
人に愛される男でした。

今頃、彼の敬愛する仲間達と天国で再会し、いい酒を飲んでいることを心の底から願っています。

生前、Kに多大な応援を頂き、皆様には感謝申し上げます。

ファンの皆様とのお別れ会は、少し時間が経ってから行いたいと考えております。

なお、制作途中であったアルバムはKの歌を録り終えている曲もあり、何らかの形で発表したいと考えています。

最後に、年末年始の時期をはさんだため行政解剖による死因究明に時間を要したためオフィシャルでの発表が遅くなりましたことをお詫び申し上げます。

平成25年1月10日
Pay money To my Pain
メンバー、スタッフ一同

PABLO

親愛なるKへ

お前に手紙を書くのはこれで二度目になる。
今思えば、Pay money To my Pain で一緒に歩んできた道も
この真っ白な紙に、一文字、一文字を書き連ねていく様に
全てが手探りで、いつも先の見えないまっさらな道のりだったよな。

俺たちはバンドというひとつ屋根の下、お互いが本当の家族の様に
それぞれが関わりあい、生きてきた。
共に成長して学び合い、多くの地で多くを知り。
時には憎しみ合い、喧嘩もしたが、誰かが泣いている時は
その方を抱き、励まし合い支え合ってきたよな。
お互い気分の良い夜は、すげえ量の酒も酌み交わしたよな。

さみしいよ、本当に。

リハーサルやライブで、俺が即興で演奏をした時、言葉にならない『なにか』を
伝えようと、よく歌ってくれたよな。
うまくいく時も、うまくいかない時もあったが、心からすばらしいと感じられる演奏が
出来た時は祈りが届いた様な暖かい気持ちになって、本当に満たされた気持ちになったのを思い出すよ。

ライブが終わるとお前の周りにはいつも人だかりが出来ていて、
色んな人の想いや言葉、時にみんなの苦悩を、真剣に受け止めていたよな。
そんなお前を少し遠くに感じる事もあったけど、また次の日、同じステージに立って
Kの詩をギターに乗せて届けられる事に心からの誇りを感じていたよ。

俺はKと出逢ってその不思議な詩の力や強い心、その優しい眼差しで本当に大きく成長できたんだ。
ありがとう、心から。

でも、俺の気持ちをこんな風でしかKに伝えられないなんて、全くどうにかしてる。

今、改めて、Kとの『思い出しきれない』思い出を振り返ると
かけがえのない出来事や、心に刻まれた風景、
人生を左右する人たちとの出会い、そして、その言葉。
本当に両手じゃ、抱えきれないほど、沢山あったよな。

これから、俺の旅とKの旅は違った旅になるんだよな。
俺は俺の旅を、KはKの旅を。

これからも、俺は今自分の居る所で精一杯ギターを弾くから
Kが居る所に、俺のギターが音色響いてきたら、またあの詩をくちずさんでくれよ。
俺、届く様に一生懸命、頑張るからさ。

さみしいけど、お別れだな。

さようなら、世界一のボーカリスト、K。

T$UYO$HI

K、俺にとってお前はバンドのメンバーであり
友達としても特別な存在だったよ。

初めてLAにふたり旅に行ったこと覚えてる？
モーテルを借りてビールを買ってくる。ただそれだけの事でドキドキしたよな？
Kと一緒にBANDを組みたくて、
その為にまず旅に出るっていう俺の作戦は見事成功だったね。

海外でレコーディングしたり、いつもは観に行ってたSUMMER SONICに出演したり
かっこいいBAND達といっぱいLIVEしたよね。
アツイ思いをもったPTP BABIES達がいっぱいLIVEに来てくれた。
いろんな夢を叶えたね。

俺の今までの人生で、一番一緒に写真に写ってるのもKじゃねーかな？
なんかあると一緒に写真撮ったもんな。

でも、もっともっと一緒に音を出したかったし
いろんな景色を一緒に観たかった。
Kにも家族ができて一緒にBBQとかもしたかったよ。
誰よりも家庭を持つ事に憧れてたもんな…。

俺が人生で一番つらかったとき
手を差し伸べてくれたのもKだった。
あの時は本当にうれしかったよ。ありがとう

いつもビックリするほどマイペースで、
周りの人間はいつもやきもきしていたけど
ほんとに最後までマイペースな奴だよまったく…。

「俺たちは四人でひとつ」

最後までそう言ってた ね。
そういうバンドマンスピリッツが好きだったよ。

まぁでも、俺は当分そっちには行く予定はないぜ！
ビールでも飲んでのんびり待っててよ。

俺もこの先の人生。キツイこともいっぱいあるだろうけど
笑って話せるように頑張るわ。うん。

んじゃ、ありがと。

またね。

ZAX

まだお前が逝ってしまったなんて信じられない。
でも本当なんだね。
寂しくてたまらないよ。

あっちでもあの綺麗な歌声を目一杯響かせて、美味しいお酒飲んで待っててな。
お前の後ろでドラムを叩けて幸せでした。
俺たちのスーパーボーカリストK。
愛してるよ。

To All

Sad News

Kei Goto (as known as K) who is a vocalist of Pay money To my Pain has passed away early December 30th, 2012 due to acute heart failure in his home in Yokohama. He has been loved by so many people since the band’s debut as we all know.
He was only 31 years old, and it was too soon to leave us.
The funeral service is held only in close relatives with the intention of the bereaved.

With poor physical condition due to a mental disease, there were a few times when K suffered very much.
In June, he was hospitalized and there was a time that he could not perform as he intended to do so. After a long fight, he got his potential back. In summer of 2012, PTP performed with their full power, and their own event HOUSE OF CHAOS was a astonishing live show. However, in October, K was hospitalized again, and the band declared an activity stop. K was facing the disease and going on a rehab. We are planning to meet up this year and just about to talk about what we can do this year with the band.

We are all confused and deeply grieved.



K had the strength and delicacy at the same time. Clumsy and people are confused by him,
but he was a man who can think about others a lot, and was a beloved man.

We deeply hope that he is in heaven now and hanging out with the friends up there drinking.

Thank you for supporting K.
We will held a time for you fans soon.

As for now, we are planning to release a brand new album with some songs that K has recorded before his death.

At the end, we apologize that we could not inform you sooner. A judicial autopsy took time due to the holiday season.

January 10th, 2013
PTP, STAFF

PABLO

Beloved K

This is the second time I write you.
It was a white road like this letter, and could not see what’s ahead of us. We have to search for the next little step each by each.

We lived like a family under the name of PTP.
We learned and taught each other. We learned many thing from many places.
We hated each other some times and fought many times, but if someone was crying, we hugged that person and stand for each other.
When we are happy, we drunk a lot, you know?

I AM SAD, MAN.

You sang for me something that does not make sense a lot when I played improve at a rehearsal and live. There were times that goes well, and some times don’t, but I recall that I was so relieved and felt warm when a great song comes out from us like my pray has reached you.
There were so many people around you after the gig every time. You were listening to every single word that many people tell you. I sometimes felt that you are far away, but I was so pleased and proud of you to play my guitar with your words.

I could grow a lot because of your strange power of the lyrics that you write, strong mind, and your kind eyes.

Thank you, from my heart.

But again, this is so crazy that I could only tell you my feelings this way.

I am looking back the times that “I cannot even remember”, there were soooo many things that I can hold in my arms.
There will be two different roads for you an me from now on.
I will go on with my journey, and K will travel K’s.

I will play my guitar the fullest at the place I belong., so if you hear a sound of my guitar, sing along, OK? I will do my best to let you hear my guitar.

Well, this is it, eh?

SAYONARA, the best vocalist, K.

T$UYO$HI

K. You were a member of the band, and a special friend for me.

Do you remember the time we had a trip to LA for the first time?
We lived in a motel, and buy some beer. Our heart were beating hard just to do that, eh?
I wanted to be in a band with K so bad, I planned a trip with you first. I guest it was a success!

We recorded outside Japan, we played at SUMMER SONIC, and we played with so many cool bands. So many PTP BABIES came to see us do the gigs.
We have granted various dreams.

Come to think of it, I think I took so many pictures with you, K..
I think I have pictures of us together the most in my entire life photo collections .

I wanted to make more sounds together, and
See many scenery.
I wanted to have some BBQ with your family.
It was one of your dreams to have a family...



When I was deeply depressed,
It was K who helped me out.
I was really glad. Thank you.

You had a tendency to do things at your own pace,
And people around you were always worried,
But hey, you are like that till the end…

“FOUR as ONE”
you always say that.
I loved the spirit of that.

Well, but you know, I have no intention to go up there yet!
Wait up for me there drinking, OK?

I guess there will be many difficult times, but I will try to do my best to
tell you with laughter.

Well, thank you.

See ya.

ZAX

I cannot believe that you are not here anymore.
But it’s the truth, eh?
I am filled with sadness.

Wait for me there singing your beautiful song and drink tasty beer.
I was so happy that I can play drums behind you.

Our SUPER VOCALIST, K
Love ya.

詞Lyrics：毛恩Morpheus
曲Composer：毛恩Morpheus
編曲Beat Arrangement :證介
製作Producer：阿吉A JI
錄音Recording Engineer : 阿吉A JI
混音Mixing：阿吉A JI
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人都是自私的產物，都會做出對自己對好的決定
你可以選擇在谷底沉淪，不斷輪迴
或選擇放下過去，變成更好的自己。
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Its not a fairytale but true story in life
feels like nightmare corrupt me a hundred times
destiny is brutal no matter how I tried
whispers from the devil interferes my mind
she’s the redemption the antidote just arrived
Heart beat was taken didn’t even realize
Give me love the best present of all time
Bring me courage to face the fear deep inside

Things changed without awareness unexpected
Losing faith no doubt dramatic got abandoned
all assumes ain't no truth don’t know how to do
Damn I’m screwed no more clue difficult to choose I
Can’t read between the lines may be foolish or blind
hard to see through what’s behind this made me terrified
after all the pain its all in vain
I loved u once but nothing remained

There is no more turning back Pearl harbor under attack
Now its time to fight it back no more questions need to ask
Better watch out every step its gonna end up bloody
Hand down something before death missile launcher is ready

I’m drown its dark and still fallin’
the world is in slow motion
light it up flames on you can feel my surge
Strike out enemy down killin like this purge
Its dawn here comes a new legend risin’
Setting up a revolution
You’ll be getting a taste of your own medicine.
Revenge is never too late for all that u have done

Same surroundings different feelings is confusing me
keep on lying she starts crying saying sorry please
Hands tied in this combat relationship is complex
u got hurt from ur ex and choose me to hurt next
Frustration and compassion I’m stuck inside the middle
struggle in my self-conscious let me make it more simple
My girl's been playing games make sure she’s gonna pay for it
I Gotta move and make moves its time I buy my ticket

Bounce back from depression from all bad moods
looking forward to the future make dreams come true
Its Now or never cover the scars with new tattoos
Rebirth comes after the darkness we passed through
Grinding all my life building up my own business
Not even scared of height watch you all hater speechless
show no mercy bitch im sorry there will be no-where safe
I’ll be watchin can’t stop laughin u dig ur own grave

lion is waken new king comin can’t be tamed crowds all insane
Im a monster getting higher lips on fire I’m spitting flame
Bad decision how dare u messin with a beast broke down the cage
In position my gun is aiming pull the trigger blow up ur face

Im drown its dark and I’m still fallin
the world is in slow motion
light it up flames on you can feel my surge
Strike out enemy down killin like this purge
Its dawn here comes a new legend risin’
Setting up a revolution
You’ll be getting a taste of your own medicine.
Revenge is never too late for all that u have done

one day when u try to keep someone close
this curse shows and leave u on your own
u are not innocent
but a player with prayer hands till the end
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