Did an interview the other day and I was asked if I still got nervous on stage these days since it’s been quite awhile since I’ve started performing and my reply was an honest yes. I was never one who’ve got that kind of exuberant self-confidence and I struggled and still struggles with the fear of not being able to deliver or to live up to expectations each time on set and on stage. I can feel myself affected by the rolling comments with my confidence diminishing with each negative comment, drop in viewers, and that affects the performance and ya it spirals. Learning to stand firm and to self-assure that I’d work to do better the next time has been an ongoing progress in life.
I remember how years ago when I first started out in Getai, and was made to be the last singer on the list. I’d always end up crying on the way home after singing cause most audiences would tend to start packing up and leaving in order to catch the bus and I took that on myself really harshly. I’m never the pretty one nor the most talented. Growing up, there was never a “yes you can do it!” but loads of “who do you think you are.. you cannot one lah!” I wish people can see the difference when there’s a support system and when there isn’t.
If there’s any one of you who always feels out of place and that lack in you, who’s had your fire “being poured over with cold water” every time, let’s just strive together to constantly improve, mentally and also in terms of skills. When there’s negative comments flooding in, don’t forget those who took the time to give you a positive one, who showed you some love and those who believed in you enough to give you a spot wherever you are today. #workonrunon #storyofmylife 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
