[150 days of final indulgence]
It's day 112. Will this snowfall ever stop?
Of course it will, like many things in life. The hardship of today is just a phase. Or is it?
January was hectic. The fact that I underestimated the workload of my last term at university only says how unfamiliar I am with myself. Despite the unexpected challenges, I did learn one thing.
For years, I had been looking for my "down time", a period of time where I could pause and think about what truly matters to me without being bombarded with all the never-ending errands or projects.
That time never came. It's a common frustration that we aren't capable of fulfilling all our dreams. Sacrifices need to be made so prioritizing our goals becomes the key to success. Even still, there's always something that gets in the way. It's either this or that. There is no shortage of challenges in life.
In response, we appeal to the idea of getting things done once and for all. We like this idea so much that we see it as the "end game" of many things. If I get a career, I will be financially independent. If I get a house, I will be secure. If I get married, I will be happy.
The proposition "if I get x, I will acquire y" is ubiquitous but often misleading.
Philosophy has taught me many things. One of them is this. We see a lot of things as objects when they are in fact events. A dance is not a thing but a series of movement. You can't pin point one move and say that IS the dance.
I think overcoming challenges is like that. There are no particular points in life in which you can say I have overcome all challenges.
It's not about how many layers of Tetris blocks you could eliminate but how long you could maintain the game. There is no end game.
So will the snowfall ever stop?
It will and it won't. Even if it stops snowing tomorrow it may rain again. Having an umbrella helps but only when we see them as a regularity, an event that repeats itself, are we truly prepared to "overcome" this challenge in the long run.
(Side note, it's not just about the amount of salt we have but whether the @cityofvancouver is committed to equipping our city with sufficient snow measures.)
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[150 days of final indulgence]
It's day 122. I just finished my User Experience class at a digital school, some errands, and my super late dinner. Despite being exhausted, I don't seem to have the will to sleep, partly because I don't want to (just yet) but mostly because I still have some reading to catch up and I'm procrastinating.
I'm sure a lot of university students question the value of getting a degree at one point or another in their 4 years of studies. "What's the point of even studying this when my future career doesn't require it?" Questions like this are such a cliche yet so true.
I hate the whole "get a degree that gets you a career to get a good life" narrative because I think it's so dated and misleading, as if universities are supposed to pick up the role of vocational schools.
For the most part, I think that universities have become a safety net, which is fair when no one really knew what they wanted to do when they were 18-year-old. And the good old narrative clearly suggests this perception.
Paradoxically, I find that universities have sometimes become the scapegoat of unemployability, presumably because we somehow expect scholars to equip us with top skills that the job market is looking for.
If anything, UBC has taught me how to think critically, as expected. I've known myself better and I've learnt the importance of prioritizing work (note, not the technique of it but the value of it). And as I'm getting closer to graduation, I seem to have a better sense of what I want do.
While it's debatable that whether universities are relevant to getting a career, I think it's important to recognize what higher education really is and isn't. It's silly to take it as a means to an end when it is an end in itself.
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[150 days of final indulgence]
The clock is ticking. It's day 136. I know this because UBC's spring graduation schedule was released this morning.
In the past two years, I have interacted with so many people who are older than me and one thing I keep hearing from them is that "your school life is the best time of your life." Being a closeted rebel, I had denied this notion but I'm slowly feeling it. I'm not entirely sold yet but I guess I'm starting to internalize it, like how I couldn't just drop or pause everything and travel for like a whole month. Or I could but it'll come at a great cost, which I understand. The older you are the more precious time is.
I dreamt to achieve so much while I'm in university. (Hey, if you say you didn't you're lying to yourself.) I still aim to achieve a lot in my final few months as a full time student.
One example is to document my thoughts and how my moods fluctuate as I get closer to the graduation date, which is May 26.
I want to read, write, and converse as much as I can as time permits, in my very last term at this place of mind.
I feel like I'm already running out of time, partly because when I look around and I see that so many of my peers achieving so much more (damn you LinkedIn "people you may know"). It's interesting how scarcity incentivizes people to do things they won't do otherwise, like how I somehow will to reflect and write this inner dialogue of mine after 9 hours of classes.
Time is like a river they say. But more importantly, you cannot step twice in the same river, not just because of the time that passes, but also because of the changes you experience over time.
Make those changes count.
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