關於 how to break the stigma ，我們在網路上蒐集到這些相關的討論、資訊與評價

Alhamdulillah, I am Featured today in @sinarplus paper..🙏🏻🫀🧠
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Saya akan teruskan perjuangan ini…Continuing to emphasize the Importance of Mental Health in Malaysia, how we need to help each other break the stigma attached to mental health issues, ask for help and get some policies changed ..especially with regards to employment for people with mental health issues, insurance coverage and . 💪🏻🤲🏻🤲🏻❤️‍🩹
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Harapan saya…masyarakat kita lebih terbuka untuk membincangkan isu kesihatan mental bukan sahaja di sosial media, malah bersama ahli keluarga sendiri…di tempat Kerja, dimana mana sahaja. Supaya perasaan ‘’malu” meminta tolong itu hilang..Dan semua mendapatkan bantuan sewajarnya. 🤲🏻❤️
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0917-800-1123

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Singapore
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United States
Crisis Text Line
If you are in crisis, reach out for help. Text REASON to 741741.

http://www.crisistextline.org

Free, 24/7, confidential.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
DIAL: 1-800-273-8255

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

United Kingdom
Samaritans
DIAL: 116123 (free)

http://www.samaritans.org

Childline
DIAL: 0800 1111 (free)

http://www.childline.org.uk

Rape Crisis England & Wales
Call 0808 802 9999 (12 noon - 2.30pm and 7 - 9.30pm every day of the year) or visit http://www.rapecrisis.org.uk for local specialist services.

Australia
For immediate help
Contact 000 if it is an emergency

Lifeline
DIAL: 13 11 14

http://lifeline.org.au

Suicide Call Back Service
DIAL: 1300 659 467

http://suicidecallbackservice.org.au

headspace
DIAL: 1800 650 890

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Kids Helpline
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ReachOut
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“The only journey is the journey within.” – Rainer Maria Rilke

“Just because you don’t understand it doesn’t mean it isn’t so.” – Lemony Snicket, The Blank Book

“Mental health…is not a destination, but a process. It’s about how you drive, not where you’re going.” – Noam Shpancer, PhD

“Anything that’s human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary.” – Fred Rogers

“If we start being honest about our pain, our anger, and our shortcomings instead of pretending they don’t exist, then maybe we’ll leave the world a better place than we found it.” – Russell Wilson

“Some of the most comforting words in the universe are ‘me too.’ That moment when you find out that your struggle is also someone else’s struggle, that you’re not alone, and that others have been down the same road.” – Unknown

“I fight for my health every day in ways most people don’t understand. I’m not lazy. I’m a warrior.”

“Don’t give in to stigma. A diagnosis does not determine who you are or what you can do!”

“Don’t let your struggle become your identity.”

“The strongest people are those who win battles we know nothing about.” –

“The problem with having problems is that ‘someone’ always has it worse.” Tiffany Madison, Black and White

“What mental health needs is more sunlight, more candor, and more unashamed conversation.”
Glenn Close

“Anything that’s human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary.”
Fred Rogers

“Just because you don’t understand it doesn’t mean it isn’t so.”
Lemony Snicket

“Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
Joubert Botha

“One small crack does not mean that you are broken, it means that you were put to the test and you didn’t fall apart.”
Linda Poindexter

I cannot stand the words “Get over it”. All of us are under such pressure to put our problems in the past tense. Slow down. Don’t allow other to hurry your healing. It is a process, one that may take years, occasionally, even a lifetime – and that’s OK.”
Beau Taplin

“She is beautiful piece of broken pottery, put back together by her own hands. And a critical world judges her cracks while missing the beauty of how she made herself whole again.”
J.M. Storm

Some days I am more wolf than woman, and I am still learning how to stop apologizing for my wild.”
Nikita Gill

“You don’t have to be positive all the time. It’s perfectly okay to feel sad, angry, annoyed, frustrated, scared and anxious. Having feelings doesn’t make you a negative person. It makes you human.”
Lori Deschene

“Out of all the things I have lost, I miss my mind the most.”
Mark Twain

“Nobody can save you but yourself, and you’re worth saving. It’s a war not easily won, but if anything is worth winning then this is it.”
Charles Bukowski

“Sometimes self care is exercise and eating right. Sometimes it’s spending time with loved ones or taking a nap. And sometimes it’s watching an entire season of TV in one weekend while you lounge around in your pajamas. Whatever soothes your soul.”
Nanea Hoffman

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”
Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

#TalktoSomeone #MentalHealthAwareness #SuicidePreventionHotlines

整理資料發現近兩年前去某國際研討會分享 #手天使 心得時的講稿，當時把我知道的議題面向都寫進去了。貼上來給有興趣的朋友。

[[slide page 1]]
Thank you for attending this part.
I'm from Hand Angel, a non-profit organization of Taiwan.

The title of my presentation is "As a sex worker and a sex volunteer",
since I'm both a sex worker, and also attending Hand Angel as a sex volunteer.

[[slide page 2]]
Allow me to introduce my organization more,
though you may know some from what Vincent has said in the morning.

Our main tenet is sexual rights to people with disabilities.

[[slide page 3]]
This includes not only orgasm, but also the right to control one's sexuality with autonomy and without discrimination.
People know us usually because we provide limited sexual service for servere physical or visual disabilities, including females.

Hand Angel is not a registered organization in Taiwan,
since we literally provide sexual service, which is considered against public order and morals.

However, we are still able to initiative our idea on the table
because our service are free, which means we actually do not violate any law.

[[slide page 4]]
In Taiwan, the definition of "sexual transaction" includes obscene acts in exchange for monetary,
which means it's considered transactional sex even there is no sexual intercourse.
And since transactional sex is technically illegal in Taiwan,
there's no legal way for us to charge anything by providing any service which may be considered obscenity.

This is much different in other countries.
In Japan, the law prohibiting sexual transaction only applies to intercourse between one male and one female. That's why White Hands and NOIR are able to provide paid handjob. The other reason is that they seem do not locate their service as sexual transaction. We can talk about this difference later.
And in Hong Kong, there's some way for sex workers not to be punished, which is called "one-woman brothel". So the difficulty for people with disabilities to satisfy their sexual desire would be different.

I, who has been a sex worker for years -- under the table, of course -- was invited to join Hand Angel at its very beginning.
[[slide page 5]]
People keep asking me that how a sex worker would think about a free sexual service.
But before that question, I think it's more important for us to know the difference other than money.
What's the difference between a classical transactional sex and our service?

As a sex worker, I hope my customers will come back to me more and more, as many times as they can pay.
But as a member of Hand Angel, I hope the servees would not need us anymore.
In fact, I hope they don't have to come to us at the very beginning.

The reason why people with disabilities may need sexual service, is the absence of sexual resource, the resource to fulfill one's sexual desire.

This is just like other issues of disabilities.
[[slide page 6]]
Just providing a service would not resolve the structural problem.

For example, if you give food to the poor without changing their situation, you would end up finding out that they're still poor.
Now change the "food" to "sex".
If we just give our own sex to those who barely have sexual resource, we'll end up exploiting ourselves, and their bad situation still remains.

The problem is, disabled people are considered abnormal, and they have been treated as no unnecessary needs.
But what is necessary for a person to live her own life instead of just survive?
In our issue, disabled people are usually considered asexual, and seldom sexy. That's the stigma we're going to break down.

[[slide page 7]]
There are some textures talking about disabled people in love and having sex, such as "Scarlet Road", "Sex on Wheels", and "The Sessions".
However, the narrative are usually based on ableism.
Viewers usually focus on how can the service provider "bear" to have sex with disabled people, instead of seeing the obstacles disabled people encounter.

[[slide page 8]]
A feminist has said that the relationship a disabled person has is considered depending on the compassion of the other person. People think their sexuality is disgusting and only saints are able to tolerate it.

So we can see the problem is not only physical obstacles, but also how we think about intimate relationship a disabled person deserves.

[[slide page 9]]
Does Hand Angel care about intimate issue? The answer is yes.
In our service, we provide not only sexual service. Our target is not the physical orgasm, but the infinite opportunity of their own lives.
Here are two examples.

[[slide page 10]] Little Prince
Since this servee can sense nothing below his waist, a classical handjob would be meaningless.
Fortunately, we have a BDSM queen in our team.
She thought of techniques in SM to check how pain it is to the slave, and use the same trick to check how the servee's body can feel.
I have to emphasize: that was not a medical treatment, that was about communication with each other.
They were talking about the feeling of two people, instead of the body of one person.
The whole process relies on the intimacy between the sex volunteer and the servee.

[[slide page 11]] ND
"Strolling" for him was from his room to the front door of his home.
Uh, I'm not talking about he lives in a big house.
Though using an electric wheelchair, ND's finger was not powerful enough to control the device for more than 10 minutes,
which means going out alone is not possible for him.
But after applying for our service, he trained himself to "walk" longer.
Even after our service, we were told that he kept trying to leave home and meet other friends.

Another servee has tried other entertainment such as snorkeling and paragliding after our service.
He's having a more plentiful life than before, and even than me.

[[slide page 12]]
In these cases, we can see that:
First, physical orgasm is not the only purpose of a sexual service.
Secondly, libido, or desire for sexual activity, is a strong energy for people to live.

There's a continuing question for us: People can still live without sex.
[[slide page 13]]
What's so important for disabled people to have sex?
Well, I think sex is probably not important for those who can have sex easily, but the impossibility to sex or intimacy may deny the self-esteem of a person.
Sex is an important reason for most people to make friends. So on the other hand, once a person is forced to abandon the opportunity to have sex, she (or he) might lose the energy to social activities. And that's not good for mental health.

[[slide page 14]] The 3 aspects we care about
First, physical orgasm. This is not only about sex organ, but also those come from your erogenous zone.
The problem is not only that people don't know how to interact with disabled people during sex,
but also that people do not want to know how the sex would be for people with different disabilities.

Second, intimacy. The right to have a satisfying date is also important.
Let's imagine, what if a couple of lovers want to kiss each other while seeing movie in a theater, but one of them is in wheelchair so their positions are actually separated?

Third, social integration. Many people with disabilities don't have enough opportunity to make close friends. One of the reasons is that other people usually don't know how to react with disabled people. Therefore, education is important.

[[slide page 15]] Gender Equity Education
In Taiwan, gender equity education comprises 3 parts: affective education, sex education, and gay and lesbian education.
Though I also want to introduce the situation that the conservative group is raising a proposal of referendum to forbid gay and lesbian education, but that's not the issue here so I have to skip that. I hope people who are interested in Taiwan may notice that same-sex marriage is not the only issue about gender equity.

Uh, back to disability rights movement.
As an organization which cares both gender issue and disability issue, we note that even open-minded gender activists may ignore the existence of people with disabilities.
Gender equity education is never designed or applied in the point of view of the disabled.
For example, there are some materials for teaching safe sex, but people seldom think about how a blind person should know before she (or he) masturbate or have sex.

We have a servee who once masturbated in the bathroom of his home, but couldn't clean up since not knowing where his semen reached during ejaculation, and therefore shocked his sister who later used the bathroom.
And another friend bought an artificial vagina in a sex toy store. But he didn't even know he have to erect before insertion.

[[slide page 16]] female servee
People caring about gender equity keep question us: why is there only one female servee during these 5 years after our foundation?
Well, we think the answer is complicated. But the most important one is: how difficult for a female to "confess" she has sexual desire?
We all know about "slut shaming", and those terms to humiliate females by their sexuality -- such as "bitch" and "whore".
It's difficult even for able-bodied females to state their sex experience and preference.
Then it's even more difficult for disabled females to think what she herself wants.

But before sexual activity with other people, disabled females don't even know their body well.
The only female servee we have, told us she has never seen or touched her own vagina.
So we also hosted some conferences and speeches to discuss about such situation of disabled females.

[[slide page 17]] Androcentrism
This is an important issue for us. And I think it's important for those who care about sexual health of disabled people.
Though there are some textures talking about sexual desires of disabled females. To provide sexual service or even sex education to them is barely seen.
I have to admit that, even though there are more and more female members joining us, androcentrism is still not easy to get over.

[[slide page 18]] limitations
Hand Angel provides service to those with servere physical or visual disabilities.
So here comes a frequently asked question: what about others?
The main difficulty for us is that we don't know enough about the situation of other disabilities.
Of course we know that people with other disabilities also don't have enough sexual resources,
but we ourselves do not have enough resources to share, either.
That's why we also hope other people to compose other similar organization.

Meanwhile, there are some people we cannot help because of law.
Adolescents are the ones I myself care about most,
since male teenagers have overwhelming sexual desire, and that would be hell for those with upper limb disability.

However, there are always laws prohibiting youths to have sex in every country.
[[slide page 19]]
In Taiwan, it is legal to have sexual activity after 16. No matter it's intercourse or not.
But even for an organization providing free service like us, the member who communicate with sex volunteer and the servee would be punished as a broker if the servee is younger than 18.
Actually, we do have an applier who mailed us about his desire when he was 15. What we can do is tell him to wait 3 more years.

Unfortunately, being an adult does not mean your right to sex is permitted.
[[slide page 20]]
People with intellectual disability or mental disorder are also infantilized, treated as babies or angels, and considered asexual.
The dilemma is similar to what teenagers have. Their consents are not considered valid.
That is frustrating. The law to protect them from sexual violence also tortures them.

[[slide page 21]] Acrotomophilia and devotees
While talking about disabled people in love or having sex, this is also an issue we should mention.
Some people worry about that devotees are just trying to dominate or take control of the disabled people.
This is similar to MacKinnon's dominance theory and male supremacy.
Devotees are considered to have more power in the relationship, and thus disabled people have a lack of autonomy.

I think that's a stigma, too.
The dominance theory does not deny free love. It focuses on the power issue.
Thus, the problem lies still on the absence of resources disabled people deserve.
Slanders on devotees are based on the prejudice that disabled people are never sexy,
and that denies the possibility for disabled people to have plentiful sexual activity.
The whole society shall support disabled people to have their own autonomy in their relationship.

[[slide page 22]] Difficulties
Usually, people would understand sexual desire of disabled people.
But to support it publicly is another story, especially for the organizations relying on donations.
There are some social workers and parents telling us that they want to do something to help their cases and family,
but it is still an issue which could not be spoken.
It's never been easy for us to talk about sex on the table, but it should be done.
Even for those who don't agree with the idea of sexual service, I do hope you could at least support disabled people to talk about their sex and romance.

[[slide page 23]]
This ends my report. Thank you for listening.
I'm Kong, a sex volunteer of Hand Angel from Taiwan.

I asked Macky Agents on their thoughts on "Why depression should be taken seriously?"
Win 1,000 GCash with #MackySummary by giving us a summary of this episode. Please comment your summary below.

Here are some of their entries.

Myrna:

Hindi natin maikakaila na Ang paksang ito ay Hindi pa gaanong malinaw sa mga Tao Lalo na dito sa pinas dahil sa totoo man o Hindi,Hindi bukas Ang mga isip Ng mga pilipino pagdating sa mental health issues.Ang depression ay isang seryosong sakit na nangangailangan Ng atensyong medical dahil nagbibigay ito Ng negatibong epekto sa iyong nararamdaman,pag iisip at sa Yong mga ginagawa ayun sa mga natutunan ko Po sa inyo.Kaya isinusulong mo na Hindi ito gawing biro and to wake up people,break the stigma and make a change dahil Hindi nangangahulugan na may ganito Kang sakit ay ibig sabihin baliw,over acting,walang pananampalataya,gumagawa Ng kwento,papansin Kaya deneclare na depress sila.Matuto tayong makinig dahil Hindi Po pare pareho Ang self esteem Ng isang Tao meron na kayang maging positive all the time na kayang lampasan Ang mga problemaa meron ding mga Tao na kailangan talaga Ng tulong..This is really not a joke because it is between life surviving and death..marami na tayong naririnig at nababasa Lalo na sa mga kabataan na winawakasan Ang kanilang sariling buhay..Kaya nandito si kuya Macky Ang unang hakbang upang wakasan Ang suliraning ito at e treat Ng Tama Ang depression upang matulungan tayo agad.Ipinapaunawa nya sa atin na Depression maybe his diagnosis but it will never defined him and will never change the fact that he can do something to be happy again at lumalaban sa agos Ng buhay and choosing to be happy.❤️❤️❤️

Glizette

#DepressionIsNotAJoke

Walang sinuman ang may karapatan na gawing biro ang pagkakaroon ng depression. Napakahalaga na matutunan ito ng bawat isa, lalo na ng generation ngayon. Why? Dahil para malaman nila na hindi lahat ng bagay ay ginagawang biro. Na hindi lahat ng bagay ay ginagawang katuwa-katuwa. Being depressed is not funny. And it's not something you should make fun of. Mahirap, sobrang hirap magkaroon ng depresyon. You'll never know the pain and the hardship that depressed people are facing. And you'll never know what they are thinking. You'll never know it unless you, yourself, experienced it. Lagi nilang sinasabi na 'depression lang yan' but no, depression is more than 'lang'. It is deeper than we think. We must teach this generation a right value. Dahil karamihan sa kabataan ngayon ay mapupusok, they sre not thinking for the consequences of their actions. Mas nauuna ang pabida, kesa ang tamang asal. Most of the people are surviving rather than living. Depression is not an easy battle. It takes a lot of courage to fight for it. So instead of criticizing them, support them. Help them to survive. Help them to see the light in their darkest life. Let's help them to see the beauty of world. Instead of making fun of them, make them laugh. Patawanin natin sila imbes na pagtawanan. Patawinin natin sila para kahit sa sandaling panahon, makalimutan nila ang dinadala nila. Tulungan natin silang umangat. Let's teach them how to laugh and how to smile. It's not easy, but I know, together, we will able to show the world that we can fight depression. Let's make a move! Together, we will break the stigma!

Talk to someone
Philippines
Philippine Suicide Prevention Hotline (Hopeline)
(02) 804-4673

0917-558-4673

2919 (toll-free for Globe and TM subscribers)

In Touch Community Services (Crisis Line)
(02) 893-7603

0917-800-1123

0922-893-8944

Singapore
Samaritans of Singapore
DIAL: 1800 221 4444

http://www.sos.org.sg

United States
Crisis Text Line
If you are in crisis, reach out for help. Text REASON to 741741.

http://www.crisistextline.org

Free, 24/7, confidential.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
DIAL: 1-800-273-8255

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

United Kingdom
Samaritans
DIAL: 116123 (free)

http://www.samaritans.org

Childline
DIAL: 0800 1111 (free)

http://www.childline.org.uk

Rape Crisis England & Wales
Call 0808 802 9999 (12 noon - 2.30pm and 7 - 9.30pm every day of the year) or visit http://www.rapecrisis.org.uk for local specialist services.

Australia
For immediate help
Contact 000 if it is an emergency

Lifeline
DIAL: 13 11 14

http://lifeline.org.au

Suicide Call Back Service
DIAL: 1300 659 467

http://suicidecallbackservice.org.au

headspace
DIAL: 1800 650 890

http://headspace.org.au

Kids Helpline
DIAL: 1800 55 1800

http://kidshelpline.com.au/kids

ReachOut
http://au.reachout.com

“The only journey is the journey within.” – Rainer Maria Rilke

“Just because you don’t understand it doesn’t mean it isn’t so.” – Lemony Snicket, The Blank Book

“Mental health…is not a destination, but a process. It’s about how you drive, not where you’re going.” – Noam Shpancer, PhD

“Anything that’s human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary.” – Fred Rogers

“If we start being honest about our pain, our anger, and our shortcomings instead of pretending they don’t exist, then maybe we’ll leave the world a better place than we found it.” – Russell Wilson

“Some of the most comforting words in the universe are ‘me too.’ That moment when you find out that your struggle is also someone else’s struggle, that you’re not alone, and that others have been down the same road.” – Unknown

“I fight for my health every day in ways most people don’t understand. I’m not lazy. I’m a warrior.”

“Don’t give in to stigma. A diagnosis does not determine who you are or what you can do!”

“Don’t let your struggle become your identity.”

“The strongest people are those who win battles we know nothing about.” –

“The problem with having problems is that ‘someone’ always has it worse.” Tiffany Madison, Black and White

“What mental health needs is more sunlight, more candor, and more unashamed conversation.”
Glenn Close

“Anything that’s human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary.”
Fred Rogers

“Just because you don’t understand it doesn’t mean it isn’t so.”
Lemony Snicket

“Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to, it’s not for them.”
 Joubert Botha

“One small crack does not mean that you are broken, it means that you were put to the test and you didn’t fall apart.”
Linda Poindexter

I cannot stand the words “Get over it”. All of us are under such pressure to put our problems in the past tense. Slow down. Don’t allow other to hurry your healing. It is a process, one that may take years, occasionally, even a lifetime – and that’s OK.”
Beau Taplin

“She is beautiful piece of broken pottery, put back together by her own hands. And a critical world judges her cracks while missing the beauty of how she made herself whole again.”
J.M. Storm

Some days I am more wolf than woman, and I am still learning how to stop apologizing for my wild.”
Nikita Gill

“You don’t have to be positive all the time. It’s perfectly okay to feel sad, angry, annoyed, frustrated, scared and anxious. Having feelings doesn’t make you a negative person. It makes you human.”
Lori Deschene

“Out of all the things I have lost, I miss my mind the most.”
Mark Twain

“Nobody can save you but yourself, and you’re worth saving. It’s a war not easily won, but if anything is worth winning then this is it.”
Charles Bukowski

“Sometimes self care is exercise and eating right. Sometimes it’s spending time with loved ones or taking a nap. And sometimes it’s watching an entire season of TV in one weekend while you lounge around in your pajamas. Whatever soothes your soul.”
Nanea Hoffman

“The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.”
Elisabeth Kübler-Ross


#TalktoSomeone #MentalHealthAwareness #SuicidePreventionHotlines

This was my Goodbye Letter.

In 2013, I was on my balcony, writing this song. This was before I realised the severity of my depression.

I decided to release this original English version today, not for only mental health and suicide awareness, but also as an act of reaching my hand out to anyone who’s been there, or is struggling now. I felt really alone that night, and I don’t want anyone else to ever feel that way.

You are never alone. There is always hope, always a guarantee that life will get better. I know I say this a lot, but I truly am living proof that happiness is possible after such darkness.

This song is very heavy, and in all honesty, I’m pretty darn scared to share it with you all. Because it’s just too personal.

But I made a commitment a few years ago to share my story in order to help others, and I’ll continue to proudly be a part of this movement. We must talk openly about these things, in order to change the stigma around it.

It is okay not to be okay. It is okay to be struggling.
We’ll get there. Life is oh so beautiful. I promise you!

PS
“3 years later I am here today…”
The end of this song was recorded 3 years after my darkest night (it still took me a while to be ready to share this with everyone), and I am so happy to say NOW? 6 years later! I am STILL here today!!

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Tonight
Composed by Lesley Chiang / Yu
Lyrics by Lesley Chiang
Produced by Team One Sound / Lesley Chiang

Starting to really think 
That I am really sick
I’m unhappy everyday
And the only thing that will really make me feel okay
Is if I just keep on lying
“Everything is fine.”
And you are still my man
Don’t ever want nobody to know that our love has ended

I do not know how I have sank so low and
I cannot let go
I’m incomplete
I feel like it is time
As If I had just died
This pain goes on 
So endlessly

I have lost my mind
Pathetic little piece of shit
Not even strong enough to face this
I know my place this time
I’m just your fan, a nobody
I won’t stand in your way
Say goodbye tonight
I’m leaving tonight
Our story ends tonight

Tell me, where did I go?
It’s like I’ve lost my soul
I can’t feel the love no more
Is there even a reason why I should keep living on?
So much time has gone
And I still can’t move on
Would it even be a threat
If I say to you that I really just might go and end it?

I should mean more to you
I was right there for you
I still think our break was incomplete
I will give you more time
I’ll reflect and rewind
I will love you endlessly

I have lost my mind
Pathetic little piece of shit
Not even strong enough to face this
I know my place this time
I’m just your fan, a nobody
I won’t stand in your way

Say goodbye tonight
I’m leaving tonight
Our story…
It’s my one last try
To make things alright
My heartbreak ends tonight
3 years later I am here today
Can I just say that
I am still alive

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