我親愛的姑丈今天早上走了. 兩年前回台時他和姑姑很開心地來找我們. 一起聊就像以前一樣. 他們喜歡種花種草. 之前視訊看到我家的紫羅蘭還問可不可以把種子帶回去讓他種種看. 回德後忘了過多久就聽到他開始抗癌.
每當這裡百花盛開時就會想到一定要讓他們來. 來見識一下春夏發瘋的植物及昆蟲.
身處在四季分明的地方其實每到這種季節都會讓我特別想家.
這是今天飛過我們家的一大群大雁
牠們都飛走了. 那我呢?
這兩天德國某些地方有到達近40度的天氣. 秋天裡總會有這樣的幾天. 有個特別的名稱稱呼它.
我們稱它秋老虎 美國叫Indian Summer 德國叫 Altweibersommer
Weiber 在德文的意思是女人. weiben 則是蜘蛛結網的動作.很久以前人們把一年分成兩種" 女人" 的Sommer( 夏季)
春天時是Junger ( 年輕) Weibersommer( 女人+夏天)
秋天則是Alter ( 老) Weibersommer( 女人+夏天)
也有人解釋應該也是因為在秋天這樣短暫出現很熱的天氣時. 由於溫差大會讓清晨的蜘蛛絲掛滿露水. 就像老女人的灰白髮.....
但這樣的天氣會帶來甚麼樣的結果呢?
高溫直接也把樹葉烤乾了. 接下來就是秋風掃落葉的淒涼.
才短短兩年多沒回台就發生好多事. 昨天我表弟的女兒一歲生日. 之前回去才跟他們兩夫妻吃飯呢? 當時的妹妹根本連受精卵都不是 XD
以為人生就是這樣糊里糊塗過. 但這一年的衝擊實在太大. 公公也這樣突然地走了. 我想我婆婆現在還在學習怎麼自己生活. 她每個禮拜都會去墓園澆花跟我公公說話.
我想我姑姑也會需要很多的時間跟她從小一起長大的枕邊人告別. 也得學習沒有姑丈的人生.
如果你每天都覺得平淡無奇. 那其實也是一種幸福的人生. 生命中也不一定得有暴風雨.
但暴風暴雨並不會說你不想要. 它就繞過你.
我們的人生並不是自己一個人走著. 而是這樣一個人一個點連結出來的一張網互相扶持走著的. 一個點弱了. 去補強. 破了. 就得多幾條線去拉住. 只有在互相關心互相體諒下的生活才會有一個禁得起風吹雨打的網.
最後連結一下我年輕歲月的一首老歌. 關於這個一年只出現幾天的日子
Indian Summer - The Dream Academy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_O3pKrzOiM
It was the time of year just after the summer's gone
When August and September just become memories of songs
To be put away with the summer clothes
And packed up in the attic for another year
We had decided to stay on for a few weeks more
Although the season was over now the days were still warm
And seemed reluctant to five up and hand over to winter for another year
Indian, Indian summer
Her parents had rented a house on the shore
'Though I stared at her all summer we never really talked
In the end, at the summer's end
I wish we could turn it around and start it again
She shared a house with her sister and mother
It belonged to a painter who rented out for the summer
Her father had already gone home
The days were quiet and we were both alone
Intensified by the lack of competition
We walked along the ocean and put off decisions
To keep us from saying goodbye
Indian, Indian summer
In the distance the city lights flickered in the bay
But any previous existence seemed a world away
In the end, at the summer's end
I wish we could turn around and start it again
Indian, Indian summer
Away from the magic could it ever be the same
I think I knew those days would never come again
#I_THINK_I_KNEW_THOSE_DAYS_WOULD_NEVER_COME_AGAIN
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