「給你一個擁抱。」（圖所傳達的意境。）
我在網路上藉由一個療癒的遊戲，認識了一個跟我同歲，來自印尼雅加達（Indonesia）的心理諮商師。
從認識到現在的時間裡，我每天盡力用著「大學被當三年的英文程度」與她對話，她是一個非常溫暖、貼心、善於傾聽、也很善解人意的人。
即使語言的不同讓我常常言不及義，或是要查著很多的單字才能對話，但她總會不厭其煩的等我。
今天遇到她的時候，她一如往常的問起我最近如何？
我跟她分享了，這一波颱風造成的天氣變化，導致我的病情突然急轉直下，從昨天晚上開始一直喘不過氣，呼吸變得很吃力，手腳也沒有力氣抬高，需要去醫院治療。
也順便告訴她，台灣的疫情趨緩了，可能會在近期微微解封，同時也問起她這幾天好嗎？
她告訴我，印尼的疫情這幾天極速惡化，從本來開始趨緩的兩三千人，突然擴大到單日確診破5萬人。
她的一位要好的朋友，在這一波疫情下過世了，而她的grandma、aunt、uncle、brother都確診了COVID-19 ，而且狀況都不是很好。
她說，她一直告訴自己，情緒、心智、身體的平衡在此刻都非常重要，如果她不夠strong，就無法支撐家裡撐過這一波的挑戰。
自己沒有什麼能做的，也無法到醫院去探望他們，唯一能做的就是在此刻照顧好自己。
聽到這個消息，心裡非常的難過，我用了很破、很沒有文法的英文說：”I am sorry, I can’t do anything… I just can give you a hug.”
那個當下我感到自己極度渺小，世界上有這麼多人還在疫情的肆虐中痛苦、疾病的惡化中掙扎，而我的痛苦就是這世界的某一小部份罷了。
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無論是肺炎、又或是重症肌無力都會引發呼吸困難。
因此可以感受到，不能好好呼吸是一件多麼辛苦的事情，但我們依然盡著所剩的力氣，努力喘著下一口氣。
印象中她曾經問我，為什麼選擇勇敢？
我說：「我時常也不知道為什麼要勇敢，過去我認為我之所以勇敢是為了對在我身邊的人交代，不讓他們擔心。
但現在好像多了一點什麼。
如果我不面對眼前的苦痛，我就無法見證自己成為我想成為的樣貌。」
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我拿起樂器，彈了一首《天空之城》給她。
宮崎峻的天空之城，之於我的某一層意義是——「對於美好世界及和平理想的嚮往，並義無反顧的追尋。甚至明白，無論結果如何，都感謝這份自己所付出的勇敢。」
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對話的最後，她說了兩句話。
“I promise what hurts now won’t hurt forever. “
“Jiayo! Lue!”
接著我們擁抱，各自離開了遊戲中，繼續面對著自己人生的課題。
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最後那個英文單字，我想了很久——原來是「加油」啊。
是我最不喜歡的那兩個字，但在那一刻我卻沒有感受到不舒服，因為在此時此刻的當下，我們伴著彼此在努力著，在現實世界中繼續面對那些苦難。
最後想分享她曾經跟我說過的一句話給各位。
“White is not always light and black is not always dark.”
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如果有人能把以上的句子翻譯的很好聽，歡迎在底下留言！我打英文的地方大都是我不知道怎麼翻會比較好聽或適切，能意會而不能言語的部份🤣
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至於我的狀態⋯⋯感覺似乎又到了必須進廠維修換血的時刻，這一波，能撐的過去嗎？
我不太確定，但是心情上卻很平靜，可能是知道這時候，平穩是最能讓自己安心的一種狀態了吧。
就好好休息吧，許律。
promise文法 在 [文法]If假設語氣- 精華區Eng-Class - 批踢踢實業坊 的推薦與評價
《If的假設語氣》
1.純條件假設語氣
If+S+現在式V,S+will(may;can;shall;must;ought to;should)+原形V
ex:If anyone lies,I will punish him.
If you make a mistake,you should admit it.
2.與現在事實相反
If+S+過去式V,S+would(might;could;should;ought to)+原形V
ps:if句子中若有be動詞，一律為were，而非was。
If I were rich,I would buy my parents a villa.(But I'm not rich.)
If he made the same mistake again,I would punish him.
(But I don't think he will make the same mistake again.)
3.與過去事實相反
If+S+had+過去分詞,S+would(might;could;should;ought to)+have+過去分詞
If he had been here yesterday,I would have seen him.(But he wasn't here.)
If he had taken my advice,he might not have made the mistake.
(But he didn't take my advice.)
4.與未來狀況相反
(a)低可能性假設:If+S+should+原形V,S+would(might;could;should;ought to)+原形V
ps:should可譯為"萬一"
ex:The sky is blue.If it should rain,the picnic would be cancelled.
(It is very unlikely that it will rain.)
(b)(高可能性假設):If+S+should+原形V,S+will(may;can;shall;must;ought
to;should)+原形V
ps:should可譯為"萬一"
ex:There are dark clouds in the sky.If it should rain,the picnic will be
cancelled.(It is likely it will rain.)
5.極難發生的假設(與真理相反的假設)
If+S+were to+原形V,S+would(might;could;should;ought to)+原形V
真實狀況：The sun rises in the east.
假設：If the sun were to rise in the west,I would marry you.
6.省略If
若句子中有過去完成式助動詞had，或表"萬一"的助動詞should，或were，可將
had,should,were置於主詞前，而將if省略。
had: If I had known it,I would have told him.
=Had I known it,I would have told him.
should:If he should do it,I would punish him.
=Should he do it,I would punish him.
were: If I were you,I wouldn't do it.
=Were I you,I wouldn't do it.
7.若非(要不是....)
(a)與現在事實相反
If it were not for+N,S+would(might;could;should;ought to)+原形V
(But for+N )
(But that+S+現在式V )
ex:If it were not for his promise to help me,I wouldn't do it.
=But for his promise to help me,I wouldn't do it.
=But that he promises to help me,I wouldn't do it.(少用)
(b)與過去事實相反
If it had not been for+N,S+would(might;could;should;ought to)+have+過去分詞
(But for+N )
(But that+S+過去式V )
ex:If it had not been for his promise to help me,I wouldn't have done it.
=But for his promise to help me,I wouldn't have done it.
=But that he promised to help me,I wouldn't have done it.(少用)
ps.But for亦可用without取代，即But for = without
ex:But for his help,I might have failed.
=Without his help,I might have failed.
ps.were與had一樣可以移置句首而省略if，但not不可與之縮寫而一起放至句首。
Were it not for his promise to help me,I wouldn't do it.
Weren't it for his promise to help me,I wouldn't do it.(X)
Had it not been for his promise to help me,I wouldn't have done it.
Hadn't it been for his promise to help me,I wouldn't have done it.(X)
8.在非真實條件句中，可用三種形式來指未來時間，(1)過去式假設法(2)should+原形V
(3)were to 原形V。三者之間差別在於可能性的大小。(1)可能性最大，(2)次之，(3)
最小。
ex:If it rained/should rain/were to rain tomorrow,I wouldn't go.
9.錯綜時間條件句
(1)子句表示與過去事實相反，主要子句表示與現在正在發生的情況相反
ex:If you had not missed th bus,we should be enjoying their concert now.
要不是你誤了公共汽車的話，那我們現在正在聽他們的音樂會呢。
ex:If it hadn't been for the doctor's care,I should not be speaking to you
now.
要不是有了醫生的照料，我現在就不能和你講話了。
(2)子句表示與過去事實相反，主要子句表示與現在事實相反
ex:If I had learned French,I would be able to interpret for our French
friends.
要是我以前學過法語的話，那我現在就能給我們的法國朋友當翻譯了。
(3)子句表示與過去正在發生的情況相反，主要子句表示與現在與在進行的情況相反
ex:If we hadn't been working hard in the past few years,things wouldn't be
going so smoothly.
要是過去幾年我們沒有努力工作，那麼現在一切都不會進行得這樣順利。
(4)子句表示與過去的事實相反，主要子句表示未來不可能實現的事件
ex:If I had earned some money last summer,I would go on a vacation next month.
如果我去年夏天賺了點錢的話，我下個月就會去度假了。
(5)子句表示未來實現可能性較小的條件或者說不大確定的條件，子句用should+原形動詞
，主要子句用祈使句或一般未來式。這種結構常常用來表示禮貌的請求或建議
ex:If he should call,tell him I'll ring back.
要是他打電話來，告訴他我將給他回電話。
ex:If I should see him,I'll ask him to ring you.
要是我看到他，我將請他給你回電話的。
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