I’ve decided to start writing blogs here every once in a while, hopefully 2-3 times a week. But let’s see if I can keep this up. Let’s start here.
It’s truly amazing where life has taken me in my music career and in life, but it has never been an easy road, and it’s never an easy road for any one of us. I’ve seen how some singer friends hustle, and I’ve seen singer friends get lucky, but working hard has always been the prerequisite to longevity in this field, and talent can come in such different forms. That’s what I’ve seen, and what I find inspiring. The unspoken social hierarchy is one thing, but truly everyone is uniquely talented in their own ways- there’s no lesser or more, just different; and there’s no better or worse, it’s just about effort. And, well, timing, and luck.
For me, I never really fully understood the whole concept of fame, but fan support and individual messages motivated me because it made me feel connected to a bigger purpose. Our music gave hope, comfort, like a friend that knows your heart. For a long time, it felt like it was meant to be. But before R&K, before all that, it was, as it is for most people, just a hobby that was also my self-therapy. My songs have always been a personal thing, a diary entry, if you will, that just gave my own heart comfort. My singing and playing was genuinely just an emotional outlet after stressful days of work, but I took my work with the special needs children very seriously.
I remember one time, after going through a bad long distance breakup over the phone, and with tears just welled up in my eyes, I shakily pressed the doorbell to go to work trying to swallow the emotions back into my stomach. Yes, I used to go up to every apartment of my clients, all across Hong Kong, 3+ hours per session, 11 sessions a week, not including data organizing, prepping, report writing, and chatting to their families, and other meetings. I waited outside at the apartment door of the child that I was the therapist for, and when the swung open, I let out the brightest smile to conceal my tears, but after a while, the child actually made me forget about the emotional pain inside of me; and I was the most cheerful and energetic I’ve ever been. I genuinely cared so much for every child I was the therapist for, even when they sometimes are uncontrollably upset, screaming, kicking, sometimes for the entire session of 3 hours. (Gosh I admire their cardio endurance sometimes.) I have so much admiration for my colleagues who shared my struggles, frustrations, patience, and heart for these children, and a lot of them still do so till today. I still have high regards for their work, because I know it’s not easy. And I’m so happy that one of them finally had the courage and determination to open their own center finally, after talking about it for so many years. 🙂 (Do check them out, if you are curious about their service. Ascend HK 悦晴教育及發展中心)
I wish that truly one day, I could use my platform to share little stories to the world, whether it’s about the kids I’ve taught, little unspoken struggles and hardships during my career, etc.
During difficult times like these, when everything feels kind of pointless and hopeless for most of us, and when everything feels stagnant, and when we, R&K, for whatever reason, cannot share our new song yet (lol. hai. 🤷🏻♀️). But I’m choosing to focus on the parts of my life where I can control. So I just want to share little stories, or thoughts inside my head, because I never really wanted to lose touch with everyone, I guess I just didn’t really know what to say. I just wanna say - it has been emotionally difficult for me also. I’m with you.
But as someone with a little bit of a platform with some number of followers, I want to use it somehow for something meaningful, to spread stories of special needs families’ unconditional love for their children and how it inspires me, stories of struggles and hopes, stories of lessons learned, stories of bridges burned, stories of personal evolution. Some off-camera stuff.
So, excuse my new version of self-therapy. Till the next post. In the mean time, choose love, and bring light. I love you guys.
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